Soonhoon | | Hozi : Letting go

F o r t y - o n e

"I have a weak heart – I get really lonely too. Sometimes, I cry by myself too because I'm a fool, I only know one thing. Even though I know how to give love, I don't know how to throw it away." He lose his sanity just simple looking at the bottle, it's almost going to be empty! Whatta man! He's so strong and even if he's not going to drink, he's already out of his mind.

"Imagine I'm Lee Jihoon, what are you going to say?"  Soonyoung laughed hysterically, with tears running down her face. 

"Are you crying in happiness or depression? You're making me crazy."

"She got me gone crazeeeyyyyyy~"  Returning his shoe in brutal way, he carelessly tossed it again, maybe accidentally but I'm out and not to be blame.

"You love hurting me? Even though it hurts but a little, tears form, my heart screams out.
If I pass in front of you, beside you, you were my whole world. I want only you but I can't breathe when I'm in front of you."

I chuckled. "Did you translated lyrics and memorized them?"

"What's funny huh?" He held the stem of the breakable flask but I stopped him and he pouted cutely. I can handle it, piece of cake. Now his eyes is now hidden now that he's entirely composed of alcohol and reactions.

"Honestly, I miss you but now I'll erase you because that will hurt less than resenting you. I miss you Jihoon! Do you miss me like how I miss you day by day!?" Sorry but I have to do this. I shove him away and flip the bottle as the liquid flow down to my throat and esophagus.   

"He doesn't know those times in the past and how would he miss you?" I cursed softly, gripping my wrist making me close the gap between our face.

"Hey!" Gosh, I can smell his scent with mere space having us. "Who are you to say that he doesn't know about our past? Huh?"

Swallowing my colossal fear, I bite my lower lip as I think about my alibi. "Perhaps, you are him? It is better for someone to break your heart once by leaving your life, than for them to stay in your life and break your heart endlessly. This is better rather than letting you stay again in my life."

What's wrong with me? I won't lie but it really hurts. "How could you be so fine? How could you trample on me? I see your smiling face as you completely forgot about me as you're being so happy."

"Should you congrats me?"

He nosily and loudly clapped his hands. "Woah~ you know that song right? I think I can dedicate it to you. Congratulations, you're so amazing. Congratulations, how could you be so fine? How could you trample on me? I see your smiling face, I guess you forgot everything."

Do you need to recite it? Why not sing it? That's better than hearing his vocal. 

"Leave me! Go to him as if a guy like me never existed. You've fallen in love."

That.........That hurts......

I mean, it hurts.

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I know it really do hurtch but what can I do? Mianhae miahae hajima~

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