Soonhoon | | Hozi : Letting go

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"Geochimeobsi---"

"Uh~" Seungkwan moaned, stretching his short leg to Dokyeom and kicked the hell out of him. 

"You're too loud." 

"Sorry not sorry bish." Seungkwan let out a high kick but Seokmin blocked it right away and hold and dragging the poor child away from his sweet dreams into a nightmare from dark DK.

"Eommmmmmmmmmmmmmaaaaaaaaaaaaa~"

On the other room, Soonyoung was frustrating with the noise outside and disturbed from sleeping. His hands absentmindedly pick up the guitar and going to start a rampage. 

"Woah, Jihoon is that you? I miss him especially when he cutely slam his guitar everything we tease him. " Soonyoung brought it down when memories hit him like how Jihoon used to do. 

"Why are you here? I'm still sleepy."

"Eeew~ Your breath stinks~" Seungkwan dramatically cover his nose, and Soonyoung him with the guitar with his tiger eyes haunting his prey. He's not in the mood for their jokes. He had a dream of Jihoon surrounded with bruises in his arms and fresh wounds within his face. 

"Okay chill." Seungkwan handed him crumpled paper in his palm, questionably staring at his friends. 

"I thought the same too until I unwrapped it and understand him." 

"Him?" 

"Mingyu found it when he's cleaning his room." Seokmin blurted.

Seungkwan ignore his last word, turning a deaf and left him perplexed. Glancing the paper, he went to the couch and curiously open what's inside. He's quaking his boots spreading away the edges. His eyes popped, frozen to see what he was looking is right before his eyes. Picking it up, he was amazed with the markings remained. 

"All I thought you lost it." He crack a smile, realizing one thing. He treasure the things he have with him and Soonyoung ever knew about it, hurting him with words he utter out of pang in his chest. Pursing his lips, he read the letter silently. At the beginning, his eyes sting and furrowed his eyebrows.

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My Soonyoungie,

               I'm not going to say I lied to you. I'll say that it hurts going back to you who steal half of my existence. I lied, there wasn't a day I never think of you. How would I forget that enthusiastic kid with beautiful eye smile who was so perfect for me? Oh, that's cheesy. 

                When I said you shouldn't find it, you don't need because I have it. I was so stupid back then because I'm convincing myself that I hate you. I hate that I can't hate you. I hate it because my heart keeps on looking for Soonyoung. You hurt me, I know you already gave up on me and you pity me when I'm crying. I really hate you for hurting me but I love you with if the pain kills me. My delusional mind drove me away from you, believing myself you love Dokyeom. I was jealous all the time because you're happier with him, so I let go and I won't if you are mine.

               You came to me like a shooting star, you gave me a single chance not to miss you, but I can't because I always miss you. Keep me in your heart and leave your sadness. Leave me. I don't know if someone will read it and give it to you but if you have it, destiny made us meet but weren't destined with each other.

             Now I  understand, what you're trying to say to me. Thank you for saving me . I hope you'll be there and do it again.

            To my one and only star, I love you Kwon Hoshi. Jihoonie loves you.

-

Soonyoung dialed Chan's number, panting heavily with Jihoon's hidden text. "C-Chan."

"I guess you read it."

"Y-you didn't it? The content of the letter, Jihoon is trying to say something."

"W-what do you mean?" His anguish tears occupied his eyelids, unceasingly falling down his bright red cheeks dripping in his chin.

"J-Jihoon left me b-because he's protecting m-me."

"You already did that dare, why it is happening again?"

"I-I don't to accuse him Dino."

"H-him? A-are you--no, no that's not true."

"Hansol on line. What are you talking about?"

"I-I think you can help me. The letter says, 'Thank you for saving me . I hope you'll be there and do it again.' Vernon, h-he can't just leave without clear reason. W-why why did he suddenly mention---sav--" He fliched, breaking out into cold sweat with the door creaking, a signal someone came in.

"Hosh, fix yourself." It is Kim Mingyu with The8. He snatched the phone and end up the call, leaving Soonyoung astounded with Thughao.

"Quit crying Soon before we will all end up joining you." 

"W-what's going on?"

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