Circles

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When they were younger they were closer.

They were at a point in their lives when nothing mattered more than being with each other. Being with each other was the most fun they ever had.

They didn't care what they looked like to people, or how "gay" they looked.(*cough* which was pretty gay *cough* I mean lets be real *cough*) They were too busy having fun.

Or maybe they just didn't realize it.

They were just starting out on YouTube, and were extremely awkward, but that's what made them so perfect. And they made the perfect team.

When they first filmed together, there was so much...Magic. All of their first videos together had this undeniable chemistry people were shook by.

They were so cute.

Still fucking are.

And Phil felt that magic more than anyone.
He looked at Dan,
and was entranced.

Of course up until he met Dan he was convinced he was straight. Still was. (Which is bull fucking shit, just saying) He thought that what he felt was purely platonic, but no. Just no. It most definitely was not. No.

And after a while,
Well,
Phil just couldn't deny it.
There was no way in hell he would ever tell Dan.
Dan was most definitely not interested.
He wouldn't tell anyone.

He kept it so secret it was almost as if he didn't know himself,
How much he loved him.
Phil loved Dan, and that's just how it was.
Was.
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He is the first one I think of when someone asks about a crush, but the last one on my tongue.

He is my whisper from ear to ear, my finger to the lips. He is blasphemy. He is taboo.

He is a forbidden smile when I know I shouldn't be thinking of him.
He is laughter on a Monday.

He has me thinking if people were art, he'd be a beautiful Mona Lisa hanging in a grand palace worth millions, and I'd be a kids drawing on a fridge, smelling of wax and small sentimental value.