Circles

8

Dan was frustrated. It was so easy to fall in love. While he refused to really openly admit it, he had fallen for Phil. But he kept saying falling as if it made much of a difference.
But,
He did fall for Phil more everyday. Phil was everything to Dan. And Dan was everything to Phil. But Dan wanted to be with Phil forever. He wanted more, but Dan was Phils best friend. That's all.

He tried to tell Phil how he felt.
And by try he means openly stare at him and give the usual obvious comment.
But Phil was so completely naive it went right over his ebony head.
It was frustrating.

Circles.
Dan was flirting in circles.
He never seemed to make any progress.
Phil just wasn't understanding that when someone tells you that you have a nice butt and winks (unless they are my friends who are just like that) they want you. That is what they are saying. But he replies with, "Thanks, Dan." And gives his cute innocent smile.
Thanks, Dan.
Dan was considering stabbing himself slowly in the eye with a spork.
Oh well.

***

"Phil, your eyes are so pretty they could light up all of London." Dan said in what he hoped was a flirty/awed voice.

"Thanks, Dan."

There goes Dans eye. Oh well. Thanks Phil.

***

*stares at Phil in awe.*

Phil: "What are you staring at me for?"

"Phil you are so cute sometimes I swear I just want to cuddle you all of the time."

Phil: "Thanks, Dan."

There goes Dans other eye. Oops.

***

"Phil, I don't think I could live without you. You are truly one thing that I never want to lose, and I'm so glad that of all the people I get to spend all of my time with it's you. You make me a better person and have contributed to everything good that happens in my life. Thank you for being my everything. You are the single greatest  thing that has ever happened to me." Dan says smiling. This right here is the ultimate hint, he thought.

"Aw. Thanks, Dan."

By this point Dan had had enough.
He had heard Phil say "Thanks, Dan" for the last fucking time. This was not right, it just wasn't! WHY WAS PHIL MAKING THIS SO GODDAMNED HARD? He considered just screaming," DUDE, I FUCKING AM IN LOVE WITH YOU OK? YOU LITTLE ADORABLE PEICE OF SHIT. YOU CUTE ASSHOLE I WILL FUCKING KISS YOU FOR THIS YOU BLUE-EYED BRITISH, BITCH."
But he didn't.
He just nodded and gave a fake smile back. Fucking thanks Dan would be the death of him.
He then got up. He couldn't stand this. Phil asked him what was wrong, but Dan said he felt sick and left. I mean it was the truth.

He went into his room and cried in frustration. There were so many tears leaving stains on his cheeks and clogging his nose. He felt rejected. He regretted even trying. Phil was just to much of a challenge. His mind circled around Phil until he fell asleep.

Circles.
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I'm really wishing I had yarn,
to tie myself to you.
Maybe if I had longer arms,
I could finally reach you.
Because I'm falling out of love,
When you make me feel like I'm not enough,
And finding virtue in black holes
That have a name,
That I don't want to care for but make me feel sane,
And I'm missing the days,
When I could breathe
All the sorrows were laid,
And you were clear to see.
I can't see you when you are,
so far away,
So I'll make peace with shooting stars,
and praise fabled old days.