Amnesiac

Fifteenth

Mother announces that I passed the examinations I took in the college I preferred and you could just imagine how my screams echoed around the house as excitement engulfed me. I am going to college.

As you know, it has been weeks since I last saw Karlos. Weeks passed since the night we spent talking in the tree house. The reason why we haven't seen each other since that time, I don't know. I don't think he's trying to avoid me or something, we just don't see each other in 7-eleven anymore.

The thought that maybe he felt awkward with me about my condition once crossed my mind. But I could not get myself to consider it, because the way Karlos stared at me right after I told him that I am amnesia stricken, it was just the same way he looked at me when he first saw me. He didn't seem to feel disgusted when I am around, so it feels a little confusing when he became MIA the past few weeks. There was no communication too, because I was stupid enough to not exchange numbers with him.

And at those same weeks, Doc Karla explained that I no longer need therapies because I am more than just stable but says that if I want to talk to her and ask for advices, I am more than just welcome to be in her clinic.

Weeks have passed as I said it, and along those weeks, mom and I were busy to prepare for the documents and other requirements needed in college. As you see, I took an entrance exam a few days ago and I am actually in. I passed.

At this second, I stared at my dark room as I packed my bags. Today was the day I will move to the dormitory of the university I would be studying at and I am beyond excited. A part of me was excited because we pulled a few strings and I would be living with Liz, so I won't have to adjust a lot when it comes to new people.

Besides that, I was just excited because being a college student means moving out of your mother's radar. Once I am out of this house, I am going to be an independent.

"Andromeda! Double time!" my mother shouts from downstairs. "Darren is waiting for you!"

I sighed in satisfaction as I zipped my duffel bag, picking it up as well as my phone and wallet. Just as I did so, the kaleidoscope effects seemed to slap me back. Shit, I was remembering again.

My mind flashes images of me packing a bag. But instead of being excited, I saw myself crying in the imagery. I look so broken in my imagination. Why was I crying? Was there something wrong?

"Andromeda, you better be ready at this moment—oh my god, what's the matter?" mom came in the room then saw me and rushed to me. I don't remember crumpling to the floor. But at this second, I was actually on the floor, curled up like a ball.

"Headache, mom. But I'm all right." I said, clutching at the duvet of my bed as I lifted myself up to my feet again. "Sorry, did I worry you?"

"Sort of. Are you sure you're okay?" she asked me.

No, I am not okay. I just remembered something but I am still confused. "Yes, I'm okay. I am sure of that."

"Okay then, well, we should go downstairs, your boyfriend's waiting."

I nod at her and started to pick up my bag and other things again. Maybe I have to worry about those imageries later or maybe some other time soon.

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The sounds that left my mouth were indescribable. Darren and I had this bright idea of blessing his car by making out. It was weird, I know. But with the sore feelings I have since I had this kind of imaginations about my past just earlier, the comfort from Darren's lips was the only thing I can rely on.

A slurp sound emits when Darren and I pulled away from each other and he instructed me to go over the center console so we both could get going. "Shit, you just gave me another boner," he whines as he looks down on his pants and sure enough, there was a growth between his legs.

I giggled. "Sorry,"

The dorm space wasn't that small, so it won't be much of a struggle. When you stay in my house, you would surely get used with the huge space because of the size of the house. There were curtains hanging loosely by the windows sills. A flat screen was bolted against one side of the walls and a couch rested against the wall adjacent to the TV. There were some furniture around too, and the space looked totally homey for me.

I turned to Darren and saw that he dropped my bag by the couch. Liz showed up out of nowhere in particular, a smile on her face. I suddenly felt awkward because of the theory I have in my head that maybe, just maybe, Liz and Darren were ex lovers. I shook my head. I should not think this way.

Darren is my boyfriend and Liz is my best friend. I should trust them both.

If they were ex lovers, that should be kept that way. Ex lovers and just ex lovers, nothing more and nothing less, that is how it should work.

Darren smiles down at me, "I guess I won't be seeing you every night anymore."

I sighed and sunk on his embrace. "Don't say that." I told him, "You could still visit me here." I looked up at him.

"Yeah, but your land lady would surely complain about having me all the time." he replies, "I bet she would keep thinking that whenever I am here, we'd be doing something."

I saw Liz roll her eyes. "Well you won't do that here right?" she asks. "I mean come on, I'm living here too. I don't want to stay here and hear all of your noises when you're at it."

I gasp at her words. "Shut up!" I chuckled.

"Sorry, but I am not taking it back and I am positive that I am saying the truth." She laughs and we join in, mentally knowing it in ourselves that Liz is saying the truth.

"Yeah babe, she's saying the truth." Darren butts in.

I blush. Okay, I may as well admit that I am a little noisy when I and my boyfriend are at it. But I hereby defend myself and say that it's normal! I mean, when you're close to it, you just have to make up a noise to at least lessen the tension.

"Not you too!" I complained and covered my face with my hands.

"Okay Darren let's stop. The woman is blushing profusely." Liz laughingly tells Darren. "I'll put your bag in your bedroom, I'll give you guys some time to say good bye and maybe have some time to make out too."

I rolled my eyes at her. "Good bye Liz." I shoo her off. When she was out of sight, I turned to Darren. "Well? The girl gave us time." I winked at him and he chuckles before leaning over and planting his lips on mine.

His lips were soft against mine and the two pairs of lips massaged each other softly. It wasn't soon enough when Darren slips his tongue in my mouth and wandered it around my mouth. The familiar taste of his gum was present as we kissed and I can't help but feel mesmerized at the smell of his breath and the pleasure of his kisses.

"We don't want your best friend walk in on us." he breathes as he pulls away. "Sucks that I would have to see you limited now," he pouts.

I kiss him. "It won't be long before Christmas, Darren. I'd be home in holidays."

"Well, I guess this is my cue." He says, pointing the door over his shoulder. "I'll miss you, Andromeda. Take care of yourself here, okay? If there's a trouble or anything at all, just call me."

"I'll break the water pipe soon and I'm sure that's enough of a problem. I'll call you by the time I do that so you could come over." I teased.

"Except in cases like that." he laughs. "I'll see you soon, love."

I smile up at him, "You too,"

Darren leaves the place and I wait until I hear the sound of his car engine leave. By the time the roar of his car was gone, it was then that I officially welcome myself on being back as a student and to college life. I no longer live in my house. I don't have my mom around and I don't have Annie to talk and listen to old songs with.

I reminded myself that there's no need to worry too much because I am lucky enough to have my best friend to keep me company. I'm also lucky enough because I don't have to adjust with new people around the place.

Liz enters the living room where I stood and smiled up at me crookedly. "So," she says, "Welcome to Hillcrest College, Andromeda."