Amnesiac

Nineteenth

"What the hell are you talking about?" he asks me as he holds his stinging cheek.

My breathing turned erratic and quick, like I was struggling to breathe. "You think I don't know about you and Liz?" I asked him, anger making its way on every word. "Well I do! I know about your past and everything you two did when you were together!"

I looked at Darren and saw that he was realizing everything I was saying and he was considering it. He knows, of course he does. When Darren didn't say a word, I snapped again. "You know what? Forget that I told you I missed you. Forget that I told you I wanted to see you." I said through gritted teeth, "Leave the damn apartment now."

"Andromeda, let me explain, please—"

"Leave the fucking apartment now!!!" I screamed, unable to contain the anger I was feeling towards him and his antics.

His face falls, but he immediately composes himself then leaves the apartment in a heartbeat. I know that I should be crying at this second, knowing that I feel crushed in the gut with Darren and I's previous argument. But the problem was, I couldn't bring myself to crying and I was just filled with anger and annoyance. There was also a part of me that tells me that I feel so betrayed.

The door opens slowly, the creaking sound filling the surroundings. I looked up, neglecting to see a spiked up hair and small eyes. I was happy that I was faced with caring eyes and red hair. Liz.

But then I remembered what I shot at Darren. Liz and Darren have a past and that was the main reason why I broke down. Slowly, I felt the same annoyance towards Liz.

"What happened?" she asked.

"What do you think?" I snapped sarcastically.

Her face softens. "Darren mentioned that you know how the two of us used to be lovers." She whispers then sits down beside me, resulting in me scooting away from her. "I never knew that you know."

"Yeah because if I mention anything about it, you would surely deny." I scoffed, "That's what I get right? I'm the amnesiac and the one who has to remember everything but why do I feel like the people that should be helping me recover is actually making me feel worse?"

"That's not true, Andromeda—"

"That's what I feel." I pressed firmly. "You kept things from me. Darren kept things from me. Mom even kept things from me. All of you are keeping things from me and I should know things but you are not providing it from me. Just so you know, Liz. I am amnesiac! I don't know anything about myself, or anything or anyone around me! There's nothing in my head about the people around me and how life works because I have amnesia and with that condition, I don't know anything!"

I stopped. My outburst was relaxing. Maybe I have been keeping what I was truly feeling in myself for a long time and to release it was a total relief. Screaming was a good thing to me, and by doing it, I feel the heavy burden in my shoulders decrease. I inhaled and tried to steady myself before speaking again. "Why didn't you tell me about you and Darren?"

Liz looks at me and stares at me for a little longer. "We just thought it doesn't really matter." She says. "We were former lovers and everything about us was now properly stored in the past. We're nothing but friends."

"But you know that I am his present girlfriend and you are my best friend." I pointed out, "You should know better than try to hide it from me. You should have known that I would find out sooner."

"I know that," she says, looking down, "But believe it or not, I really planned on telling you soon because I slipped out already the last time and I know that it's been bothering you." she confesses, "I just thought that I should wait for the right time. I don't want you to be like, be more confused than how you already are."

I looked at her directly in the eyes and searched for any sign of dishonesty. I would not deny the satisfaction I felt when I saw none, and I have proven myself that she is not lying to me or trying to fool around.

"Sorry if I did hide it from you, but I really did plan on telling everything about it to you." she says, "Maybe I was just a coward before and I never had the gut to tell you. I'm sorry that you have to find out this way and it has to affect you and Darren's situation."

I sighed. "Don't worry about Darren and I. There's a different problem of why we were fighting."

"Different problem?" she questioned, confused. "You mean the thing about us was just a latter?"

"Exactly."

"What was the problem?"

"I just found out that Darren was watching on me." I told her. "Earlier, Karlos and I were in the library to find something for our term papers in Literature. Then we were headed back home, Karlos dragged me to the cab he hailed. I swear that I was hearing snap sounds while we were walking,"

"Then when Darren came here, he thought that I was cheating on him with Karlos. Turns out, the snap sounds I was hearing while we were walking were camera sounds." I said, "The picture looked like Karlos and I were holding hands, but it was just because he was literally dragging me to the cab. Darren flipped out when he saw it and confronted me about it. But things didn't turn out well."

"You explained anyway, right?"

"I did, but he didn't believe me." I sighed. "I was stressed from school and the café was packed and then Darren would greet me like that. Everything's a mess."

She sighs then sits down on the couch with me. "It'll get better in no time."

I looked at her and slowly, I hoped that everything will be better soon like how she said.

-

It was finally Friday and it was a day in the college where party invitations are increased. Liz and I received one and we were actually planning to go. I tried to drag Karlos and he actually agreed to go. The man was a party animal as well.

As for Darren, we haven't talked to each other since the screaming. I made an oath to myself that I won't be the one who'll contact Darren first because in all terms, I wasn't the one at fault. I wasn't the one who blamed my significant other that he's cheating on me, and I wasn't the one who hid a heck load of secrets.

So as Liz turned to another corner, she stopped by a curb and went out to summon Karlos from the house. His house was small, but it was big enough for two people since he has told me that only him and his baby sister lives there. Karlos pulled some strings to have his other friend to watch over Colleen, his little sister.

Soon enough, the red head and the curly head went in the car and we started to drive our way to the party's venue.

"So basically, you guys share a boyfriend?" Karlos dumbly asks from the backseat.

I saw Liz roll her eyes. "We don't share a boyfriend. My ex boyfriend happens to be her present boyfriend now. It sounds like a shit set up, but it works out for the three of us."

I looked at Karlos over the rear view mirror and saw he was making a disgusted face. "I can't imagine the three of you having some sort of a threesome."

My eyes widened. "Ew, Karlos!"

He laughs. "Sorry, sorry, I couldn't help but voice out my thoughts. I was just telling the truth, okay?"

"Stop with the threesome topic because we are here now." she says. "You stay as the sober one again, because Karlos doesn't know how to drive." She turns to me and I just nod. I wasn't really up for getting drunk anyway. "So, what are we waiting for? Let's go get the party started, shall we?"

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I won't be able to update for the following days, (not that I update regularly lol) bc school's been eating me whole. HAHA

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