Amnesiac

Twenty Fourth

I was stuck in the hospital for two more days. It was really efficient and so kind of Doc Karla to take charge of the bills, although I insisted that I could find a way to pay them on my own. But she was so kind and so genuine that she pushed the idea away, and insisted that she would surely take control of the bills I caused in the hospital because I don't want my mother to know that I was hospitalized for three days just because of her. I won't give her the sick satisfaction.

The trio of Karlos, Liz and I rode in silence in Liz's car. I have the feeling that they think I'm too fragile now, since Doc Karla said that if I over react to things like how I did when I thrashed to mom's shit, there's a chance that I get another seizure. As Doc Karla said it, if I get another seizure, it would be s little critical for my condition, since my amnesia is oozing off slowly.

"Liz," I called my best friend. She hums in response, telling me that I have her full attention. "Was mom always pushing me to Darren even before I got in accident?"

When I awoke 2 months ago from coma, there was nothing in my head, as in zero percent. I remembered how miserable and awful I feel back then. I spilled everything to Doc Karla because she was my shrink, and she told me that she would help me with everything as I go on the path of recovery.

I remembered just two days ago. Part by part, my memory is slowly piecing back. It was like I was slowly finding the missing pieces of puzzle that was me and every time I find a piece, I am successful on putting it in the right spot. I realized that my first clear vision back in the party and the vision I got before I got a seizure could possibly have happened before the accident. I wasn't sure though, but there was a gut feel in me, telling me that that theory is true.

The sound of Liz's low gulp brought me back to the present, and I looked at her sceptically. "Yes," she finally answered. "She always does."

"Hey, um, excuse me," Karlos butts in, "I don't know anything about your mother. Heck, I don't even know my own mother, but can I say that your mother is a bullshit mother for pushing you to someone just like that?"

I chuckled at Karlos term. "For a second, I would like to agree with you to the bullshit mother thing. That is clever." I clapped at him then faced Liz again. "I still can't remember a lot, but when I saw this vision, this sudden recalling, I saw myself in my room with my mom."

"What were you guys talking about then?"

I reeled my mind to remember then spoke, "I believe it was about Darren and I, again." I said. "I kept telling her that I want to break up with my boyfriend and all, and she keeps telling that I should not do that and that I should fix whatever it was between me and my boyfriend. And since Darren and I have been together for three years, I believe the boyfriend in the dream was him."

Liz sighs. "Andromeda, your mother is really determined of pushing you to Darren."

"Why?"

"Clearly because your family's rich, and Darren's family's wealth is like... twice of yours." She says. "When your mom found out that you were dating a member of the Espanto family, she went nuts and became head over heels at the idea of keeping this shitty bloodline thing between the Martinez and Espanto families."

"Does Darren knows?" I asked her. I swear that if Darren knows about my mom's determination of pushing me to him, I will slay him like how pigs are slaughtered.

"I don't think so," she shook her head. "Whenever you open up to your mom about your issues with Darren and your relationship especially at fights, she sides with him. Clearly because back then, when you have your mind set to something, you would do it with no second thought. And your mom knows that if you guys fight, you will think of breaking up with Darren and it will take you no longer than a blink of an eye to do it and dump it to her face."