Ruby rose fanfiction.

hmm

i was so bored.... i never realized how much ruby actually entertained me.

i called ashley and she was coming over to rubys house soon. i mean my house. i mean our house.

i opened the door and there stood ashley and her belly bump

"hey girl." she smiles

"you look like shit!" she yells letting herself in and sitting on the couch

"yeah. well you look fat!" i joke

"eh ive had worst insuslts." she laughs

"so hows troys house? have you met his parents?"

"yeah, there really wealthy and nice and did i say wealthy?"

"hahaha.."

"hows it been since ruby left?"

"well she left this afternoon and im already bored and i miss her." i pout

"aw, well i saw you got engaged!!?? thanks for letting me know about that!"

"hey! i didnt even know! she purposed on ellen!" i laugh

"yeah i have the episode recorded." we start laughing uncontrollably

"hows the baby?"

"i guess okay. i went for a few check in doctors appt, and they said all is well."

"i wish i could have children."

"you can!? you can adopt or get a doner?"

"yeah right. now is not the time. ruby has enough going on. im not just gonna randomly ask for a baby"

"have you too even talked about it?"

"not really." i shrug

we sit in silence and then she starts again

"hows the fashion line doing?"

"still set to launch in two weeks!"

"awesome!" she smiles

ahsleys phone rang and it was troy telling her to come home because the babies crib arrived and he wanted ashley to see if it was the right one because they had already taken two back that ashley didnt like.

i hugged her goodbye and went to mine and rubys room.

i put a record on and laid staring at the ceiling fan.

i drank an entire bottle of rum and smoked an entire pack of cigs. i never smoke i only do unless i want to, and somehow today i wanted to badly.

i drank all the liquor in our pantry and two packs of cigs.

i was bored, i put a scary movie on and i made some popcorn. i didnt eat it and i barley was paying attention to the movie. i was in such a weird mood ive never felt so empty. so alone. i sat by my phone and watched to see when ruby would call, instead i went on  social media and read horrible comments about myself. i read every one. i was crying like an idiot and then i laid in bed. i laid there closing my eyes and still not being able to sleep i stayed still staring over at rubys perfectly made spot where her body would be.

im pathetic i know, it was just such a weird feeling having someone you have been with for a long time non stop. just taken. i went to the bathroom and i cried. i got in the shower and the hot water loosened my tight muscles, i was feeling better for sure. i tumbled over to the bed not bothering to put clothes on and i laid there. my body not giving in of course. i laid and i laid until it was 5 am in the morning. so i went for a run.