Ruby rose fanfiction.

Never

Everyone always told me. "Things will get better."
"Don't give up."
But I felt like each day my body was starting to give out. First, I lost a kidney that failed, and then I needed surgery on my lung. I felt like I was no longer fighting a battle to recover, but I was fighting for my body to recover.
I've never been so depressed in my life.
My feeding tubes no longer help me feel full. No matter the meal or time of day, I feel empty.
Marcy came to check on me and fell in love with ruby. Theyre constantly are giving me support, I haven't been mobile. Meaning with all the surgeries I've been having I can barley blink without pain. I want to give up, I want to let go.
I was interrupted in my thoughts by ruby walking in my room from the cafeteria,
"Oh my gosh babe. Nothing is even eatable here!" She laughs sitting next to my bed
I fake a smile at her
"Baby.. Why don't we try walking today?" She says hopefully. The doctor said since this is my 6th week here I should be doing activities again. My last surgery was a week ago, so I should be in the recovery process. I know I should try. But I'm scared I'll have an accident again.
I look over at ruby
"Not today love." I say softly
She sighs
"What's on your mind?"
"Nothing."
"Lia, talk to me."
"I don't want to do this anymore ruby."
"Do what my love?"
"I don't want to be here."
"Well the sooner we get you walking and being more active we can go home and we can..."
"No." I look over at her "ruby, I'm tired." A tear streams down my face.
"You don't mean..."
"I mean, I don't want to fight anymore." I wipe my tear barley being able to hold my arm up long enough to touch my face.
"No, baby. We will get through this. And you and I are going to walk out of here together no matter what." She cries grabbing my hand and kissing my knuckles over and over again.
"I can't do this." I cry
"Baby. You have to. I can't go on without you." She sobs onto the bed
"I'm so sorry." I hold her hand tighter taking all my energy to squeeze her hand.
I'm weak.
My body Is letting go.
I can barley get up to take a piss without four nurses helping me up off of bed.
Ruby looked up at me holding my hand to her face leaving trails of kisses up and down my wrist.
"Okay! Lia rose! I just need a quick physical." My new doctor pat walks through the door. Ruby sits up straight wiping her tears.
"Oh, my apologies. I can come back in an hour." He says looking at ruby.
"No, no please." She says looking at him cracking a fake forced smile.
He helped me out of bed with ruby supporting my back and a nurse holding my hands. When I stood the floor hit the bottom of my bare feet, cold,
A feeling I missed. I missed all feelings.
My leg was sore. I looked down at it, showing my huge scar made me cry. I started to sob. I was looking at my leg,
Marcy lifted my head by my chin with her finger and looked me in my watering eyes and said
"Your here. Im here."
See when I first arrived and I was getting down about my leg, about everything. I would constantly tell Marcy to just leave me if I fell or couldn't get off my bed on my own.
She sat me down and told me
"Sweetie, you are still alive after colliding with a fourteen wheeled truck. If God wanted you dead. You wouldn't be sitting here. Your a beautiful young woman. Who can accomplish many wonderful things. And now you have a scar to remind you each day that you are meant to live this life. You are here. And so am I. That's all that matters."
Ever since then when I cry or have a rough day she'll remind me. It calms me. In a way she's like a mother, comforting.
I looked up at Marcy and she wiped my tears falling from my cheeks.
"Okay." I whisper.
"Lia I'm gonna need you to step on the scale and then take your gown off." The doctor said
I stepped on the scale and it read 72 pounds.
I released my robe not caring about anyone seeing I was throbbing with pain. I had stitches up my rib cage and a scar beneath my belly button. You could see my rib cage very perfectly. Every bone in my chest, ruby helped me cover once he was done checking my stitches.
"Your beautiful." She whispers on my neck as she buttons the last button on my gown, ruby and Marcy helped me to the bed and then I laid down.
"You okay?" Ruby asks
"I'm okay." I smile