Logical《Septiplier》

「Chapter 15」

7/24: I haven't logged anything here in a while I suppose. it's been a very rambunctious 4 months, I guess I should say i'm not alone anymore, well, relationship wise. At the sleepover, everything had gone according to plan, that was the night Mark and I had our first kiss. It was very blissful and time had seemed to stop, it was a glorious moment despite everyone watching. But I guess he thought it was all fake, I heard his story about his ex who had hurt him in the past. I promised and reassured him that I would never ever do anything to hurt him, because honestly, I wouldn't! Now here we are.

We've been dating for approximately 4-5 months now, at first he seemed scared, didn't want to show much affection. now, he doesn't want to spend time away from me! His grades have far exceeded my expectations and he is currently in honor rolls. Sure he slips on a grade from time to time but that's to be expected; high school is hard and we all can't be perfect, but it's nice to see that his grades have improved and that he enjoys school (sort of). We study together, we eat together, but we don't make it awkward for the group. I guess it isn't awkward because over half of the people in our group is in a relationship.

Speaking of groups; my old friends have wanted me to go back, they came over to the table to personally ask for me to go back, but I respectfully declined their offer due to the fact that I have found friends that have a positive environment. A few weeks later, they had replaced me with someone else, do I care? no. not one bit. it hurts a little to see that you have been replaced, but at least that tells me their making an effort to make new friends. But i'm sure this new person in their group will meet the same fate as I did.

Anyway, my group of friends are great. Danny and Arin are still extremely proud of themselves for the whole sleepover thing even though Felix was the one who mainly got the ball rolling on our relationship by giving us the dare we wanted. When we told Mark that it was somewhat of a set up, he laughed. He laughed so hard he looked as if he was about to wet himself. He said and I quote:

"of course that would be something you guys would do. but Jack, I gotta say, it was kinda cute."

I promised myself, no one but my friends are allowed to know about this relationship. Not my siblings. Not my parents. The reason I can't tell my parents (mainly my father) is because he will say i'm not actually "a man" and that i've become an absolute failure to this family, and it wouldn't surprise me if he kicked me out in the process. typical homophobic parent. But honestly, me being whatever I am, doesn't make me any less of a person, and my father doesn't seem to get that. I can't tell my siblings because they will tell father, and it will not end well.

I have introduced Mark to my family though. They seem to like him, but my father claims to have a sneaking suspicion that something is off about him. that something isn't right about him. Well I mean he isn't wrong, but he also isn't right, but he doesn't need to know that.

We're now entering our final year of high school, our senior year. The final chapter of high school.  Just one more ear until I can get out of here, away from the judgement, away from the expectations, away from my family. I love them dearly, but they're too much for me to handle. But I know I just want to get out of here and head to college, I don't know what I want to learn or become, time will tell. I'll leave here with Mark, and we'll live happily together.

I close my book and rest my head upon Mark's shoulder as we sit on the stone wall and watch as the sun slowly disappears over the shoreline of the beach. It was beautiful. My eyes felt heavy, I had stayed up late watching anime again. Soon I fell asleep with my head still on his shoulder.

He picks up my notebook and kisses my forehead. He takes my pen and opens to where I last wrote.

Mark here writing in Jack's journal. I haven't read anything in here, I promise, I respect your privacy Jack. These last four months with you have been amazing and I couldn't ask for a greater and more supportive boyfriend. You make me laugh and smile when i'm down, you bring happiness into my world. I know in the future, even though you don't know what you want to become, that you'll find a job that will make so many people smile. You have such a positive attitude. we'll live together, and have a little pup. we'll always be together even through the hardest time. I promise to support you no matter what. and always remember that I love you to the moon and back.

love your absolutely charming, dashing, muscular Boyfriend,

Mark ❤️

He takes a moment and looks back up to the quickly fading sunset. He admires its beauty and goes back to the book to write one last message.

After today the sunset will always remind me of you and the way you have your head placed on my shoulder in a blissful sleep next to me. The sunset is so weird, it's something so far away and it creates such beauty, it reminds me of us. Because even if were ever far away, we'll always have something beautiful between us; our relationship.