Nova | Jacob Black

20: "I'm ready."

Nova.

I turned the page of my book, it feels as if it's been forever since I've even felt the softness of a page. I can't help but have memories come back to me from before moving to La push.

I used to be so shy and awkward, I never had more then one friend at a time. I was an outcast, just the quiet girl who sat by herself on the football field.

And now, everything is so different. I have people who I can actually call my friends, a whole pack to be more precise. I'm not even fully human anymore, I'm part vampire. It's like I've entered one of my books, I'm in this strange supernatural world that I would have never guessed could have existed. I mean, shape-shifters and vampires? For all I know fairies could be real and all around us! It's so crazy, and all this craziness was now my life.

But the one person who truly made this so worth it, was Jacob.

My Jacob.

I finally have someone who loves me, and not only loves me, but is bound to me for life. I never thought I could find a boyfriend, let alone my soul mate. And Jake was all that to me, my everything, my entire life.

And as cheesy and cliche as it sounds, I love him more than anything in this world. I had fallen completely and madly in love him.

A knock came from my door, I looked up as Alex entered my room.

"Hey," he greeted, closing the door behind him and taking a seat at the end of my bed.

"What's up?" I questioned, closing my book and setting down.

"I'm leaving tomorrow morning, Andrew's having this new years party and I told him I'd show up." I watched as slight look of sadness crossed his face.

I admit, Alex was a pain, but it was nice having him around.

"So you're saying goodbye now?" I asked, looking over at the clock on my counter and realizing it was almost midnight. "I'm leaving early in the morning, probably before you wake up." He said, looking over at me and smiling.

"Take care of mom, she's worried about you." He said, I nodded. "I know, and you take care of yourself. Don't get drunk and end up in jail." I advised him, he laughed, reaching over and pulling me into a hug.

It was a little awkward but I hugged him back, "I'll miss having you around." I admitted, we pulled away. "I'll miss you to loser," he joked. I rolled my eyes, watching as he stood up and walked towards the door.

"Have a safe flight!" I called out.

He opened the door, "I love you Nova."

I was a bit taken back by his sudden show of sibling love, I softly smiled. Alex and I were never the soft and mushy type of brother and sister.

"I love you too," I replied, he smiled.

Walking out the door and closing it.

I sighed, standing up and grabbing my book. I put it back on my night stand and walked towards the window. It was dark outside, more than usual since it was December. My mind drifted to Jake again, it had only been two hours and I missed him. Ever since I turned he's never left my side, like he's afraid of losing me. I didn't mind it though, I liked spending time with him.

I walked back to turn off the light and slip back into bed. I pulled the sheet up to my chin and closed my eyes.

Hopefully I would fall sleep soon, the past few nights I haven't been getting much sleep.

It's as if he's still going to come back for me, even though he's dead.

But, I couldn't fight the feeling that he was still watching me.