Denying Dreams

14.

I still went to Liam's house even after the "light" talked to me. I didn't get a chance to see Harry like I thought I would. Now I'm sitting on the floor of Liam's living room with Liam and Niall and we're playing the PlayStation he has.

As always, I win.

"Score!!! Eat my ass!", I got up and rolled my hips in victory.

" Sit down Louis. Why don't you just go ask Zayn to do that. We all know you want him to.", Niall taunted me.

"You only know because I told you that asshole.", i rolled my eyes and went to the kitchen.

" You make it obvious though. You're not good at keeping a secret Louis.", Liam put his controller down and followed me in the kitchen.

I got a bowl and went for the strawberries in the fridge.

"How did you get gay anyway?", Liam asked me as he sat on the counter.

I laughed at his stupidity.

"You don't 'get gay'. I'm one of those people that have just always been this way."

He gave me that, "really bitch" face and I shook my head.

"I'm serious Liam.", our conversation grew short when there was a knock at the door.

" I'll get it!", Niall shouted from the living room.

I heard the door open and Niall speak to whoever was at the door.

"So was there ever a guy you liked?", he questioned as I popped a strawberry in my mouth.

There was Harry.

No, not was.

Because he's still here.

But Harry was mine and only mine. I didn't want to share him. If I did than someone else might see him the way I do and want to take him away from me.

" No, not really."

"Then how did you find out you were gay?"

"From high school musical."

That's how most gays guys found out.

"Troy was soooo hot.", I said and he just laughed.

"Clearly you don't want to tell me. That's fine. Hey Niall, who's at the door?!", Liam yelled the last part as we both left the kitchen.

" Oh, no one. Just a ding dong ditch.", Niall's accent seemed different and we was walking weird.

"Hey Lou, can I talk to you for a second?", Niall wobbled towards me and I shrugged nodding.

I was led back into the kitchen and put down the bowl of strawberries next to me and sitting on the counter.

" Whatcha need jellybean?"

"Louis, it's me.",Niall's voice changed to a different one.

His Irish accent changed to an British one and his eyes turned green. Soon his whole appearance changed to Harry.

" Ta da!!!", he put his hands in the air and smiled widely.

"Harry?"

"Yeah Lou, it's me.", he gestured to himself and moved closer to me.

"Harry you can't just go around possessing my friends!", I said quietly shouting at him.

" But it's fun. Plus other people don't see me as me, they'll see me as Niall. Come on I'll show you."

He took the mirror from over the kitchen sink and showed the both of us in it. Only he looked like Niall, and I looked like me.

"See, I'm undercover."

"Harry, do you think this is a good idea? Seriously, what about the actual Niall?"

"He'll snap back up when I tell his body to. I'll just snap my fingers and he'll go back to himself, I'll still be here and when I snap my fingers back, I'll be Harry again."

I stared at him cautiously.

This is good and bad.

Probably mostly bad.

"I don't know about this Harry.", I shook my head and he got closer.

He took my hand in his and smiled.

"See, you can feel it now, right?"

Before, when he tried to hold my hand, neither of us could feel it. We could at first but then after awhile, the feeling faded.

Now I had his hand in mine and he lifted them in the air. I intertwined our fingers and held it tighter.

"I, I can feel it.", I said in shock and relief.

" Can you feel this?", he leaned into me and our lips meet.

It felt like heaven. His lips were soft and warm and made me feel so good. Like I was worth something. He pulled apart from our kiss and I smiled.

My first real kiss by the person I loved.

"Yeah, I felt it."