Guess what?
I'm finally happy!
You make me smile and laugh!
I'm not depressed anymore!!!
Not hurt or angry, just sunshine and everlasting trust!
H-A-P-P-Y!! I could sing all day long about our love.
I'm finally "ME" !!!
******(What is now written over this page in my notebook in marker)********
WRONG
GULLIBLE
LIES
DECIET
ATTENION WHORE
FAKE
MONSTER
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This has proved to me that no matter how right somebody can make you feel, they can turn into a hellbeast, you're own personal monster, what hid in your closet and under your bed when you were 4, what encircles you when you close your eyes. I loved this guy, not because of what we did together or we we shared. But what he did for me. He pulled me up and out of deprsseion and self harm and made my life turn a 180. When someone does that for you and no matter how many times you told them don't bother, or no matter how many times you rejected them because you weren't stable; they did it anyways. They were DETERMINED to make you feel like you deserved to feel. But on a Thursday in APRIL of 2012 he flipped. Called me a whore and a liar. Saying that I gave him things I would never, refuse to ever recieve. He made me seem like.... like an alien.... Note how I put EVER LASTING TRUST, either that was a mistake on my part or bad timing but my heart was in the wrong place @ the wrong time.... Me being a dumbass took him back becuase of a couple factors that my lovestricken, naive heart forced upon my mind; #1- He had a bestfriend named Joseph, long story short, Jospeh manipulated Germell and got him to break up with me and say/do this in front of THE WHOLE SCHOOL(Literally, my brother saw, sisters, frinds, teachers), so I thought that because he was "manipulated" that it wasn't his fault. #2- He was crying his heart out afterschool chaing me around begging me to look him in the eyes, to say something anything, to forgive him. At the monent I didn't give in. But when I went home and checked my text messages there he was, all 200 messages, from "Osito". I replied " You have the audasity to try to talk to me?!!"..... The conversation carrie don and I didn't forgive him but took him back..... #3- I was IN LOVE, enough said, I don't even wanna explain that reason. So yep, trust issues galore and alomst a year later I'm still broken from this guy and it isn't because of this, other reason, but that's a different post. Oravah!(? I think? :P)
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