Believe

Teddy

I don't want to think of you differently

I don't want to be angry with you

I don't want to feel awkward talking to you now

But you have to understand

I felt like everything you've told me was honest

And I believed it was

But now I'm not so sure

I understand that we aren't and weren't together

But before you stopped talking to me for a week

The messages we sent to each other

We said I love you and all

Did you mean it?

Please tell me the truth

I can't handle it but I need to know

I know we didn't date for long

And it's all kinda early or sudden

But it was the intensity that drew me in

So if you meant what you said

Why are you with one of my best friends?

Why her?

Why'd you flirt first?

I mean we can do what we want

But why one of my best friends

Like to me, that's wrong

But we're different I guess

So if I began dating one of your best friends

After I ignored you for a week without notice

And the last conversation we had

Was all cute and kinda lovey dovey

And then all of a sudden I want to group Kik with you and your best friend

And we tell you

You'd be perfectly okay with it?

You wouldn't be confused

Shocked

Angry

And sad?

But we're different

So I guess not

But do you get why I see you differently

I really believed and trusted you

And now I feel like it was all a game to you

Like I never really mattered

But I like to remember it that way

I mean it when I say you're the most amazing person I've ever met

But I can't see you as the guy I'm in love with

When you torn down what I saw

Now it feels like we never had anything special

And maybe we didn't

But I like to remember it that way

I see you as nothing to me because it's easier that way

Then thinking of you the way I used to

I see you as just another person

Because it's easier to sleep at night

Every time I even begin to try to work through my thoughts about what happened

I start to cry

I don't want too

But it just so happened you meant a lot to me

And I thought you meant everything you said

At least I like to remember it that way

I remember you called her babe

And I died inside

I remember you said I love you

To her in one of those Kik messages

And I died on the outside

I would really like to think

That you're not who I now think you are

But now I can't believe anything you've ever said

Or will say to me

Believe me, I want to talk to you

But every time I do

I think of you and her

And it hurts

So that's why I can't stand to talk to you

I'm debating in sending this to you

So if I do

I want you to know

That I really want to say more

But I just can't manage it

But I hate being hung up on you

And look at you

Moving on and shit

So thanks I'm all confused now

I'm so glad I know you

But at the same time

I wish I never knew you