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"She was the kind of girlfriend God gives you young, so you'll know loss the rest of your life." {Junot Diaz}
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I BROKE DOWN, falling to the floor. I shook my head, my hands covering my face so no one could see all of the tears streaming down it. Steve got down beside me and started comforting me. "Hey, c'mon buddy, they said 'almost.' That still means that there's a chance of her surviving."
I nodded my head, realizing that I had to be positive through this. Lexie would be positive if it was me in that hospital bed. I know she would. That was the kind of person she was.
I sat beside Darry, him ruffling my hair. I sighed and stared into space.
This is going to be a long night.
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AFTER WHAT SEEMED like hours upon hours of waiting, the doctor entered. We all immediately stood up and he took a deep breath. "Lexie is stable enough for visitors, but on one condition. There has to be only one to two people in there at a time. Plus, you have to be really positive when you talk. Because if she can hear you, you don't want to say anything negative."
We all nodded our heads, the gang letting me go first. I was right outside of the door, and I stopped to take a deep breath and gather myself.
You can do this.
I walked in and covered my hand over my mouth. I had to look away because she looked...... dead.
I looked back towards her and grabbed a chair. I sat it right next to the hospital bed and sat down, grabbing her hand.
"Hey, Lexie." I whispered, kissing her hand. "It's Soda."
I started talking in my regular voice. "I don't know if you can hear me or not, but if you can I just wanted you to know that I love you. I love you so much. I know you can get through this, and if you do, I promise no one will ever hurt you again."
I had to stop talking to contain myself from crying, but failed. My tear drops fell on her hand, slowly falling down until they hit the bed sheet.
"The gang and I never knew what innocence meant until we met you, you know." I started, a smile escaping my lips.
"But, I figured out something. You're not innocent. Nobody in this world is completely innocent. We're all guilty of something. You have times when you lose your temper and go Dally crazy, but I love when that side of you comes out."
I bit my lip and glanced out the window, the bright sun hitting me in the face. I turned back towards Lexie and grinned. "The sun is even shining for you, Lexie. It's shining all for you."
