Facing him again (complete)

Chapter 14 - The box

His POV

I have arrived a couple of days earlier because of work, so I haven't told TJ that I'm here yet. I'll probably text him a day before he's supposed to get me at the airport. I'm staying at a hotel for now just outside of town to avoid any run-ins. No one has to know I'm here yet. I can't help myself, I just had to check if she was here. I heard a little bird that told me she's visiting for two months. It's late at night so she should probably be sleeping, but driving by won't hurt anyone right?

Just as I pulled up into the street across from her parents' house TJ emerged from the front door. TJ? What is he doing here? Just behind him I saw her. Oh how I've missed her. I barely recognized her, she's changed. Her figure is slender ... is that purple and blue in her hair? I can't see quite clearly, the porch light isn't that bright. She's wearing a pair of skinny jeans and a tank top with her hair in a messy ponytail, but something looks off. I can't put my finger on it.

I watched as she and TJ sat together on the double swing seat. She looks so comfortable with him. I watch them closely as they talk looking for some indication that they are together. He said they weren't so he better not be lying. He started to twirl a piece of her hair between his fingers and I did not know how to react. I know I don't have the right to be jealous but seeing them so ... close makes my blood boil. He laughs at something she says and she smiled. I missed her smiles, her laugh always brightened my day. She always had that way of making me feel better in her own little ways.

Just as I decided that it would be best for me to leave, Azora rested her head on TJ's shoulder while he wrapped and arm around her. What the ...? I can see them talking and it looks like she's upset, just relax man he's probably just comforting her. TJ suddenly put his hand under her chin forcing her to look at him, is he ... is he going to kiss her!? I'm going to strangle him! He lied to me, they are together! Before I could get out of the car and ruin everything he gave her a hug and kissed her on the forehead. Huh I guess they aren't together. I'm just wondering if he'll ever admit to her how he has always felt. I knew from the beginning that their feelings ran deeper than they would care to admit and that got me crazy jealous, until I realized that they don't know how they felt about one another so I let it go. I thought that he would have told her how he felt about her after ... after what I did, but it turns out he never got the chance too, neither did I get the chance to fix things. I sigh and drove away looking in my rear-view mirror just when her brother and I'm guessing his girlfriend left. Should I turn back and go see her? No that will just make everything worse. I know she wants nothing to do with me, but I know I really want to see her ... no after tonight I need to see her.

Azora's POV

It's been very quiet since Keven and Suzanna left a couple of days ago. My first month here is also up. I can't believe that the time flew so quickly. Apparently Suzanna and Keven wants to get married as soon as possible meaning they want to get married in three months from now. I know it's crazy, but I realized that's the way they roll. I also haven't seen TJ since Suzanna and Keven left, but we at least text throughout the day. We haven't talked again about what happened on the porch, I'm guessing he's giving me space which I appreciate a lot.

I've been feeling drawn to the box of the pictures in the bottom of my closet but I kept pushing it aside because I know the picture is of him. Since TJ started to text me less and less, which has been for two days now, I know It's because he's probably here and I guess that's why I'm drawn to the pictures as well.

I sigh heavily, it's such a beautiful day out, the sun is shining and birds are singing. The weather is not too hot or too cold, just the way I like it. I stand up from the lounge chair by the pool and walk slowly up to my room. My throat starts closing up more and more with each step and my heart is speeding up. I'm actually going to this ... I'm going to look at the pictures, but when I get to my closet and got the box I stood frozen with it in my hands, lost in my own thoughts.