Requested by XMissGrayX
Loren's POV
They say love is like a drug, you get addicted to the smallest drop of it. And once you tasted it you start to crave the touch of the person you love.
You become so addicted that you become broken when your ripped apart from who you love.
And that's exactly what happened to me.
I remember the memory of the person I was addicted to being teared apart from me and becoming addicted to someone else.
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"I never loved you" Jack shouts across the room.
I freeze, I feel a single tear run down my face. "So what was this" I say pointing between Jack and me.
"It was nothing more than a waste of time" he mumbles.
"So than why did you waste your time staying up until 2am with me watching dumb movies, why did you waste your time bothering to check in on me everyday when you were away, why did you waste your time whispering I love you when it was all fake" I choke out
He shrugged as if it didn't mean anything to him.
"You were just a boost in my ego and now I don't need you anymore" he's says. I look up into his eyes as they are filled with no emotion.
"So that's it after everything we've been through after all the times I've been there for you when you thought no one cared, after all the times I supported you through everything that we did it's all just going to end?" I question.
"Yeah it's over" he shrugged.
I stand there for a moment. Maybe if I stood there for a few seconds longer I would wake up and find Jack sleeping peacefully next to me. But I didn't this wasn't a dream it was reality.
"What are you just standing there for I told you to get out" Jack mumbles.
I sigh as more tears fall down my face. "I hope you have a happier life with someone you love" I say as I grab my things and walk out the door.
As soon as that door shut I knew that I would never go back to what we had.
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It's been two weeks since I've walked out of Jacks life. I was truly broken.
My addiction for Jack slowly taking over making it hard to breathe without him by my side. Making it hard to find the motivation to do anything without him cheering me on.
I look across to the mirror and realize just how much of a mess I am. My eyes had heavy bags under them, my hair was pulled up in a messy bun, pieces of hair sticking out everywhere.
I don't know if there is anything left to live for.
I sigh and realize that it's over for me. I was just a girl whose memory of ever existing was slowly fading away.
I slowly get off the bed barley having the strength to lift myself up.
I grab a pencil and paper, my hand was shaking as the pencil made contact with the paper.
Dear Jack,
Even if you never fell in love with me, I was hopelessly in love with you. I fell in love with you because you weren't afraid to show me your imperfections. I fell in love with you because you weren't afraid to take risks, to speak your mind and when I'm about to give up on everything you tell me it's all going to be fine. I fell on love with you because you treated me with such a level of respect that I can not even begin to explain. I fell in love with you because when we were together we weren't just lovers we were best friends. I fell in love with you because you were the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. I am trying so hard to be okay with you leaving. I am trying so hard not to think of you or stumble across memories that I don't want to have anymore. I'm trying so hard to forget everything you made me feel. But oh god last night I saw an old photo of us and we looked so happy. You were holding me and I was wrapped around you and we were laughing. We were in love. Or at least that's what I thought. And it just hit me that I will never get another moment like that with you. I won't get to see you laugh at one of my corny jokes,or see you roll your eyes every time I'm being stupid, or see your eyes light up when you look up at the stars. I won't get to smile at you randomly-just because I love you. It just hit me that this is the end
-Loren
I finish the note with tears rolling down my eyes. 'This is for the best' I think to myself as I walk into the bathroom.
I dig through the drawer trying to find the bottle. As soon as I see it I quickly grab the bottle and pour out the pills.
I hesitate for a second thinking if this is what I really wanted. If I wanted it all to end without seeing Jack again. Two weeks ago came rushing back to me and I knew what I wanted, I wanted to escape.
I quickly down the pills as my vision becomes blurry. "I'm sorry I'm not what you wanted" I whisper as if Jack could hear me,then I'm gone.
Jack's POV
I aimlessly wander through the empty halls of the house. If I could take back all the things I had said to Loren I would. I didn't know what I was thinking. I wanted to see her again I wanted to hold her in my arms.
As if right on que the doorbell rings.
I bolt to the door and in one swift motion open the door. I sigh as I realize it was just the mail.
I rummage through the mail and freeze when I get to a letter from Loren and a different letter from her parents.
I instantly drop all other mail and open the letter from Loren.
As I finish the paragraph my eye start to water as my tears spill out. I slowly open the letter from her parents. It was the day that her funeral was.
*****The Day Of Her Funeral******
She really was gone. And today was her funeral.
I glanced up at what I'm wearing satisfied I walk out the door and was on my way to her funeral.
I see people walking towards the run down church and I follow.
After sitting through alot of speeches it was my turn to speak.
I brush off my suit and walk up to the stage.
I clear my throat and being. "I wasn't really expecting to speak at Loren's funeral so soon so I apologize" I begin.
"These few weeks have been painful without Loren by my side. I wake up everyday hoping, praying that I would wake up next to her, hoping to see her sweet smile. Hoping to hear one of those corny jokes that always made me crack up. I wish she was here right beside me and even though I messed up bad and wish I could take back something's that I said, I just hope she forgives me when I join her" I finish with tears down my face.
It hit me hard when I stepped down from the stage I was still head over heels for Loren and she was dead because of me.
Sorry for the bad ending and I hopped you enjoyed the imagine.
