One Direction Preferences

i hate u, i love u.

i hate u, i love u-gnash featuring Olivia O'Brien.

Harry- "You want her, you need her,
And I'll never be her."

"Harry, we need to talk." The words you've been dreading saying finally coming out of your mouth. Harry and you are sitting across from each other at one of your local Dunkin Donuts, sipping coffee silently on a so called 'date' for the past thirty minutes. "What do you mean by that?" Harry says, as if he doesn't know what you're about to say. "We need to talk about us, because if you meant what you said the other night at the bar then I-" "I didn't mean anything I said at the bar, I was drunk." He cuts you off. "Drunken words are sober thoughts Harry, you're the one who told me that." You remind him. "Look, I don't want to break up with you. I just want you to know I'm never going to be like Kendall, okay? I'm not going to look like her and I'm not going to act like her, and I know you two broke up right before we got together and I'm not saying you're using me as a rebound, but I just think you should know now that nowhere down the line of our relationship am I going to be like her. So if you want something like her, you're not going to find it with me." You breath out, letting the words you've been wanting to tell him since Saturday night fly out of your mouth. "(Y/N), I don't want her. I want you, I was just drunk. Maybe I was confused and maybe I miss what her and I had, but I don't want it anymore. I want to start something stronger and more meaningful with you." Harry says, grabbing your hand from across the table, making a smile appear on your face since you finally got this discussion out of the way.

Niall- "Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you.
Friends can break your heart too,
And I'm always tired but never of you." ((Niall's P.O.V))

I'm broken, I'm a mess, I'm a walking disaster of a human. She doesn't love me, she never did, and she never will. I wasn't happy enough being friends with benefits and now I'm left here broken. Liam is trying to get me to go see a match with him today but I can't handle that, I don't even want to leave my apartment. I want to sit here and think about how stupid I am since I decided to risk everything in the off chance she would like me back, what an idiot move. Obviously she doesn't love me back, I mean look at her and then look at me. She would be settling for me and I'd be the luckiest guy in the world to have her. I've been moping around for the past two days, since two days ago she hit me with the text that she doesn't think we could be friends with benefits since I confessed my love for her the night before. It doesn't take a genius to figure out that she means she's done talking to me, if she doesn't want to date and she doesn't want to be fwb's anymore, than there's no other option. All I meant to her was sex anyways, I'm sure that's the only reason she kept me around. God, what was I thinking!? I know she's into Louis anyways, she's told me countless times but I still risked it and look where it got me. I'm sure by now she's gotten Louis to realize how much of a catch she is and I'm here crying on a couch. I'm pathetic, just pathetic. I shouldn't have gotten attached to her, I knew she didn't want me on a relationship level as she made that clear every time she would fawn over Louis while she toured with us, but I fucked around with her and now my hearts broken by a friend, at least I hope I could call her that.

Zayn- "You ever wonder what we could have been?
You said you wouldn't and you fucking did.
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix,
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed."

"Hey, (Y/N), I know we broke up, but I was wondering if you wanted to come chill tonight? I know I fucked up, but I was just going to let you know the offer stands for tonight... It's Zayn by the way." Zayn, your ex left in a voicemail to you. He cheated on you which obviously ended your relationship and since he's been leaving voicemail's trying to convince you to 'chill' with him but as far as you're concerned, he's just trying to have a one night stand. To try and keep yourself from doing just that, having a one night stand with your ex, you've been going out to bars and having a few drinks to distract yourself from him. Tonight you're having a particularly hard time doing that whether it be the voicemail or the fact that today would have been your anniversary, you find yourself sitting in a bar stool at some bar pretending to watch a football game while the bartenders mixing your drinks. "Hey pretty lady, what's a girl like you doing here?" A man around 6'3 ask you, leaning on the bar beside you. "Trying to forget about a broken anniversary tonight." You confess to this stranger as you stir your drink. "Ah, rough breakup maybe?" The man asks, taking it upon himself to sit in the stool beside you. "I suppose you could say that, they cheated on me." You shrug before taking a sip of your drink. "Well y'know, the best way to get back at someone for that is to go and sleep with their best friend, but I suppose you don't want to do that so maybe sleeping with me could do you just as well?" He asks, making you want to spit your drink out in his face but the only thing stopping you is your phone going off, the caller ID telling you it's Zayn. "I'm sorry, I have to go." You tell the man, placing your drink on the counter along with a fist full of money that you pull out of your pocket-probably more than a generous tip- before walking out of the bar with your phone to your ear as you file for an uber to your ex's house, not caring if it's just for a drunken hook-up or if its for a chance to get back together, either way you're spending your anniversary with him even if he cheated when he said he never would. Maybe it's the mixed drinks talking but your feelings are all over the place and you need to discuss them with the only person that can deal with you, not some guy in a bar.