Lovesick: Part 2

What's Best?

(Paige P.O.V)

The ride back to our hotel was dead. In the car was complete silence between Dean and I. Throughout the rest of the show, I avoided him all day backstage. I didn't want to see him and I sure as hell didn't want to run into Nikki. So, I pretty much just stayed in the locker room all night, went out for my match, then went back into the locker room until the end of the show. Then in the car, we said a few things to each other but other than that it was complete silence. I knew he could tell something was wrong with me because he would glance over several times, looking at me every now and then. Also, he asked if I was okay more than once and I'd just give him a simple 'I'm fine', which everyone knows is the biggest lie in the book. Lord knows I wanted to say 'Do I look like I'm okay?!' But I kept my cool for as long as I could but somehow I knew I was about to break.

We walked into our hotel room and I immediately threw my luggage down onto the floor, then flopped down on the bed. I buried my face into a pillow, hopefully it could help me fight back the tears that have been waiting to fall down, but I refused to let them. "Paigey, what's going on with you? I haven't seen you at work all day, you've been silent on the whole ride back here, and now you're still silent and going to bed already?" Dean said as he walked into the bedroom and sat down beside me on the bed. "Would you please talk to me? I feel like I've done something wrong but I won't know if I did, if you won't talk to me." He said as he placed a hand on my back and rubbed it against me gently. I let out a sigh then sat up on the bed and looked him straight in the eyes. "We promised each other that we'd tell each other everything, right?" I said to him. "Yes. I remember we promised each other that awhile back. Why? Do you need to tell me something? You know, you can tell me anything, babe. What's going on?" He said with so much concern in his voice. He had no idea that he was the one that needed to be telling me his secrets, that I found out on my own. Apparently, he must've forgotten that we are supposed to tell each other everything and I mean EVERYTHING. "It's not me who has something to tell you, Dean." I said and he looked at me with a confused look on his face. "W-what..what are you talking about? If you don't have anything to tell me, then who does?" "No one has to tell you anything. It's what you have to tell me. What you NEED to tell me. I know you do, you just haven't said anything yet. I'm not even sure if you ever planned on telling me!" I began to shout at him. I could see the look still on his face. He was still very confused as ever. Maybe I should just but to the chase.

"Paigey, I don't know what you want me to tell you...you seem upset about something, please just tell me. I've already had a rough day and I'm already feel like I'm stressing over...things going on. I don't want things to be going on with you as well. So, please tell me." He said to me and I angrily stood up from the bed, beginning to pace back and forth. "Stressed? Over things? Oh, let's see..things like what? Maybe the fact that you're about to be a father in 9 months?!" I shouted at him as I stood in front of him and he gave me a more serious look than before. I could tell he was shocked that I knew about it because we stood there staring at each other in silence. "Hmm, I see that I must be right about that. Yeah, I know about it." I said. "H-How did you find out about this?" He said as his voice shook. "I was heading out of the locker room after getting dressed, I seen you two standing in the hallway talking and I figured that I should just keep walking and be about my own business, so I did. Until I overheard you guys mention a baby..." I explained to him. "So, you eavesdropped on my whole conversation with Nicole?" I said as he looked at me angrily. I looked back at him just as angrily and crossed my arms. "Don't you even try to put all this on me. EVERYONE EAVESDROPS!" "But still it was so wrong of you to listen in on our private conversation!" He shouted and stood up as well. "Private?! Dean, you two were literally nearly in the middle of the hallway! Anyone could've walked pass you guys and overhear every single word! And unfortunately but also fortunately, it was only me!" "No, just unfortunately, Paige! You shouldn't have stopped to listen to our conversation in the first place. If you would've kept walking, your feelings wouldn't be hurt right now and you wouldn't be bitching at me for getting Nikki pregnant." He said to me. My heart dropped at the fact that he thought I was being a bitch to him. I wasn't being a bitch but yes, my feelings were hurt and after hearing him say that, my feelings were hurt even more deeply. "I'm sorry that you think I'm being a bitch to you. I'm sorry that I had to find out that she was pregnant by eavesdropping. I'm sorry that my feelings are hurt to know that my boyfriend got another woman pregnant." I said as the tears began to form in my eyes once again and this time I couldn't hold them back. They had finally fallen down my cheeks and I wiped them away. "Look, stop crying. I didn't get her pregnant while I was with you, okay? It was awhile back when she and I were together. We had unprotected sex and now I have to face the consequences of doing so. I'm sorry, okay?" He said to me, but saying sorry doesn't exactly make everything okay. "This isn't okay, Dean. I love you so much and so does she, apparently. I could tell by the way she looks at you. She wants you around her more often because of this baby and it's only slowly drifting us apart.." "What do you want me to do, Paige?!" He shouted at me, cutting me off. "I have to be there for her and my kid or she will consider taking the baby away. I can't have her do that to me. I wouldn'tbe able to live with myself! She needs me now more than ever and it's my own fault. But.." He paused leaving us in silence once again. I already knew what he was about to do, that's why more tears began to stream down my face. I tried to wipe them away but I just couldn't stop them from flowing. My cry turned more into a sob as I seen him walk over to his luggages and picked them up. "Listen, I love you so much, Saraya. I really, really do. You have my heart but I need to do what's best and we both know what that is, since you heard what was said. Please don't cry over me, I'm not all that great. We just should've remained friends, like we once said before. I love you, I love you, I love you but I love her too and I need to be there with her and my child the most." He said with tears in his eyes as he walked out the door. I knew the break up was coming which was why I was already crying like this. I didn't think to stop him because he was right. I only wanted what was best for him and if that was her, then who was I to stop it?
I crawled back into bed, wrapped myself up in blankets as I quietly sobbed into my pillow. Crying for so long only made me gain this massive headache. He told me not to cry but that was easier said than done. I just lost the love of my life, again and it hurt like hell. But remaining friends is probably what's best for us...at least that's what I wanted to believe.