Lovesick: Part 2

The Lying Game

(Dean P.O.V)

I lied to Nikki. I had to lie to her so I wouldn't break her heart. I couldn't dare to do that to her, so I'd have to comfort her with a lie. She's the woman that I love, I know that deep down inside. But if I'm so in love with Nikki, as much as I think I am, why is Paige constantly on my mind? God knows that I still had feelings for Paige. Major feelings. And for some strange reason, those feelings just won't go away. When I was with Paige, it was all vice versa. I was crazy for Nikki at the time, now that I'm with Nikki, I'm crazy for Paige. It's not fair for either of them. I can't have them both, even though I really want them both. They both have me lovesick over them, and I don't know what to do. But what I am doing, is wrong. I'm playing the lying game, and once the truth comes out, someone will be hurt. It's not fair to Nikki, she's pregnant with my child and I should be there with her, not even thinking about another woman. But here I am with Paige yet again. I can't help myself. Not only have I lied to Nikki but I've cheated on her as well. I'm repeating the same thing I've done to Paige, once before.
She pulled away from my lips slowly and looked down. I could tell that she didn't want me to do this, but I just didn't want to stop. "What's the matter?" I asked her softly. "We shouldn't be doing this again, Dean. You have a family to think about, just leave me be." Paige said to me. "But you're all I think about, Paige. I can't help that I'm in love with you." I said to her. "Look, I love you too but I don't want to be in love with you, Dean." "What do you mean?" I asked as she gave me a sigh. "I mean that I want to be in love with someone else. I can't do that if you won't let me. You keep coming back to me, then leaving me alone again. I don't want that." She explained to me. I understood what she wanted completely, but I couldn't stand to lose her to someone else. "Paige, look you can call me selfish, but I don't want to lose you.." "Dean, you've already lost me. I'm not yours and you're not mine...no matter how much I want to be." She said. "Then be mine, please? If that's what it takes." I said. "What about Nikki? You seem to love her a lot, since you did leave me for her on two occasions." She said. It was all truth. Saying that I love Nikki is the truth but saying that I love Paige was also the truth. Truth is, I didn't want to lose either of them but I knew one of them would eventually have to go. I didn't want that at all, so the lying game would have to be played again. "I'll leave her." "You'll what?" She asked, so I repeated myself. "I'll leave her. If that's what it takes to be with you, then I'll leave her." I said. "No. I'm not sure about this, I'm not gonna let you do that." "Paige, listen to me. I know that I'll get a lot of shit for it but I don't care if it's right or wrong. All I know is that I love you. Don't you see? She doesn't want me around you, and here I am. She doesn't want me talking to you anymore, and here I am. No matter what's happened, I still was here for you, like you were for me. All because I love you. I'm not gonna let a damn thing change that." I said to her. I could tell that she was about to start to cry so I kissed her lips as passionately as I could and wiped her eyes before the tears could fall down her cheeks. "You don't have to worry about a thing, okay? I want to be with you and that's how it's going to be. I love you." I said between kisses. When was the lying going to stop? Lying only made things worse but for now they made things better. I can't make everyone happy but I'm trying. I may be trying it the wrong way, but if it works, I'm gonna take the ball and run with it for as long as I can. Truth is, I meant every word I said except the part about leaving Nikki. I didn't want Paige hurting and I don't want Nikki hurting either, so lying to the both of them would keep them from hurting. Although I hated lying to them so much, it felt like the right thing to do.

(Paige P.O.V)

Later that night, Dean had to go back to Nikki. I didn't want him to go but I understood that he had to. I almost felt like she and I were sharing him, but she just didn't know about it. It's not fair to her but when they did that to me awhile ago, it wasn't fair to me. Karma? I'd say so. But it's not about that. I didn't believe that Dean would break up with her just to be with me. I'm sure he's a man of his word, so I guess I'll find out soon. Honestly, I wanted to be with him but a part of me wants to move on. It's time for me to be happy again. In order to do that, I might just have to remember my best friend AJ's advice. 'Open your eyes and know your worth.' As I remembered her advice, I heard my phone buzz. I picked it up off my bedside table and unlocked it, seeing that I had a text message from Seth.

Seth: Hey, just thought I should check up on you, Paigey. Haven't heard from you in awhile. 9:51pm

Paige: Aw, thanks for the check up. I'm doing pretty well. How've you been lately? 9:53pm

Seth: I've been doing great lately. Ya know the usual. Being Seth Rollins. 😊 9:54pm

Paige: So conceited, Seth! 😒😂 9:55pm

Seth: If you were me, you'd understand, Paige. 😋 Anyway, what're you up to tonight? 9:56pm

Paige: I'm having a marathon night, by myself. Wyd? 9:57pm

Seth: I'm just chillin in bed. A marathon of what? Spongebob? 9:58pm

Paige: Lol. How'd you know? 😂 9:59pm

Seth: Omg, say swear! 😂😂 10:00pm

Paige: I swear! I'm watching a marathon of Spongebob right now 😂 10:01pm

Seth: You're a big kid, Paigey. And a dork! 😂 10:02pm

Paige: Who doesn't love Spongebob? Come on, I know you watch it too. 😂 10:03pm

Seth: Fine, I admit it. I watch it too, sometimes. 🙄 10:04pm

Paige: Good, then come and watch it with me. Pleaseeeeee? 😇 10:05 pm

Seth: Only because you said please. 😊 10:06pm

About 20 minutes after texting with Seth, he was beside me in bed and we watched numerous episodes of Spongebob. We ate popcorn and also had decided to order some pizza. Hanging out with Seth was actually a lot of fun. He was actually really funny and I got to know him a whole lot better than I did before. He was great company, I'm glad he decided to come over. "DAMN! It's past midnight already!" He said as he looked at the time on his phone. "What? No way!" I said as I leaned over and noticed that it was already 12:41am. "Wow, it's almost 1 o'clock in the morning! How many episodes did we even watch?!" I laughed as I said that. "Probably only over 9,000 episodes!" He said as he browsed through his phone. "Pfft! You wouldn't know, you were stuffing your face with pizza most of the time!" I said to him with a laugh and he laughed as well. "I was not, I paid attention to most of it." "Bullshit!" I said. "No way" he said as he looked down at his phone. "Exactly! There's no way you could've payed attention!" "No, no not that. Did you look on Instagram?" He asked me and I looked over at him confused. "No, I haven't been on Instagram lately, what's going on?" I asked. "Well, I was looking through Insta and seen Nikki's latest post. She posted this..." he said to me as he turned his phone to me so I could look at Nikki's post. She posted her left hand with a diamond ring on her ring finger. The caption below it read: 'It's official! I'm soon to be Mrs. Ambrose!' I began to feel my heart race fast in my chest. I could almost hear it beating in my ears. I could tell the expression on my face had changed and I knew Seth knew something was wrong because he set his phone down and pulled me into a tight hug. I quickly started to sob. Luckily I had Seth there to keep me cool, calm, and collected and eventually he got me to explain why I cried like that. I was still crying, but I managed to get the words out. I just wanted to know why. How could Dean do this to me? Why would he do this to me? Just, why?!

He lied to me.