Lovesick: Part 2

Not What I Wanted (continued)

(Paige P.O.V)

..."W-What?" I asked him, as I was shocked by his words. Did he just say that he didn't want to be engaged to Nikki? Seriously? I wouldn't have ever expected him to say that. Not in a million years! I was shocked. Tons of thoughts ran through my head as I tried process what he just said to me. "What do you mean by that? Why isn't that what you wanted? Why would you do it, if you didn't want to? That makes no sense..." I asked him many questions before he decided to finally cut me off. "Which is why I said to let me explain...please?" He said to me and I let out a sigh before letting him go on. "Okay, okay..go ahead. Explain." "Like I said, I didn't want this. I didn't want any of this to happen. It was sudden and unexpected and I had no idea that I would even be engaged that night." He started to explain, but as I listened to him, something just wasn't adding up to me. "Wait, you didn't know you'd be engaged? How? Weren't you the one to propose to her?" I asked him with an eyebrow raised, then he let out a sigh. "I didn't propose to her. Well I did, but it was months ago. Many months ago, before all this happened." He said to me. I nodded my head but it still didn't really add up to me but I wouldn't say anything, I'll just let him further explain. "So, when I got home that night, she randomly out of nowhere told me that she still had the ring. Which surprised me because I thought she would have gotten rid of it. But she didn't, so she decided that we should be engaged, again." "So she just got the ring, put it back on her finger and suddenly got engaged to you? You didn't have any say in this?" I asked. "I did, I told her that maybe we should wait because I'm not sure if I'm ready for marriage. I felt like I was back then, but then shit happened and now I'm just really confused. One thing I'm not confused about is my love for you." He said to me but I didn't want to buy into any of that. "Dean, save it. You're 'engaged' you shouldn't even be thinking about me. You shouldn't even be in love with me." "My feelings don't just go away, Paige. And I know your feelings for me aren't gone either." "So what if they aren't?! I can't do anything about it, and neither can you. You're engaged!" I shouted. "I don't want to be engaged! Nicole forced me into it, with all the baby talk! She said we should get married before the baby comes because she doesn't want to bring it into this world without being married. I tried to turn it down but it meant everything to her. I couldn't hurt her and I never meant to hurt you. I was gonna end things with her so I could make you happy but I couldn't. I can't make the both of you happy no matter how hard I tried. I had to do it, Paige. I had to go through it, just to make her happy. I had to do it for the sake of my kid. I'm sorry. I never wanted to lie to you, I'd never do that. Just know that I'm sorry." Dean confessed to me and apologized. I understood why he did it, it all made sense at the end of the day, so I forgave him. But I could never forgive him for the pain he made me feel. The pain that was still in my heart was all because of him. I never wanted this. I never wanted to be involved in any of this. I never even wanted to fall in love with him, but we don't always get everything we want. Not in this lifetime.
"So...when's the wedding?" I asked softly as I looked down. "She wants to do it real soon, before her stomach grows any bigger. So next week...Saturday." He said to me. I wiped away a tear that fell down my cheek. I didn't want him to see me cry, but when I looked up, he had shed a tear as well, wiping it away just as did. This was how our story ends. He's getting married in one week while I'm here lovesick over him.

You see me standing, but I'm dying on the floor.
Maybe if I don't cry, I won't feel anymore.

"I just hope you're happy with the choice you've made." I told him. "Sometimes I feel like I make the wrong choices." He said. "Don't say that. Look where the choice got you. You'll be a loving husband soon. With a wife, and a baby. You'll have a family. I couldn't have gave you that. Sometimes the wrong choice ends up being the right one. I'm happy for you." I said.

I'm happy for you.
Know that I am. Even if I, can't understand.

"Paige, you don't have to act like you're happy for me." "But I am though. I may not understand your choice correctly, but hey...we live and we learn, right?" "Yeah, I guess." He said. "She makes you happy?" I asked him and he let out a sigh. "Tell me the truth. Does she make you happy?" I asked him again. "Yeah, she makes me happy. Even though I wasn't ready for marriage, she still made me happy at the end of the day."

I'll take the pain, give me the truth.
Me and my heart, we'll make it through.
If happy is her, I'm happy for you.

"That's all I really ever wanted. For you to be happy. I know you wanted the same." I said. "I wanted the same and I still want you to be happy, Paige." Dean said. I stood up and walked over to the door slowly and unlocked it as I made it over there. I let out a soft sigh as I turned around to face him. "I'm happy for you. Know that I am, even if I can't understand. I'll take the pain, you gave me the truth. Me and my heart, we'll make it through. If happy is her, then I'm happy for you, Dean. And by the way, congratulations." I said to him before walking out of his locker room. I didn't want to be in there with him any longer. I said what I had to say, I listened to what I didn't know yet, and I left when I needed to go. Truth is, I was really happy for him, even after all we've been through together. Now I just needed to put my happiness first.

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I really, really, really love that song. It's by Demi Lovato called Stone Cold. It's very relatable to this story, so you guys should give it a listen! ♡

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