Lovesick: Part 2

Don't Stop Loving Me

(Dean P.O.V)

I woke up the next day, with Nikki laying right by my side. If I said I was sleeping with the one I loved, I'd be lying to myself. Don't get me wrong, I love Nikki a lot but I still firmly believed that I'm in love with Paige. She had this latch on my heart, and it just wouldn't come off. She stayed on my mind constantly, and I couldn't shake her off. She had me lovesick over her, and I hated it. I wondered if she ever felt this way about me. I know I should be forgetting about her, since that's what she wanted, but I can't. I was in love with her and love isn't something that should ignored. I needed to see her again, to try and make things right between us. Although I have a family to think about, I couldn't focus on any of that, as long as Paige would be on my mind.
"Dean...Dean.....DEAN!" I heard Nicole shout several times before I quickly jumped out of my thoughts. "Huh?...Yes, beautiful?" I asked as I looked over to her and she smiled at me. "What are you doing? Daydreaming?" She asked. "Yeah, babe. I was definitely daydreaming. Sort of lost in my thoughts, you know?" "Of course, sweetheart. I know you daydream about me often, I don't blame you for getting lost in your thoughts." She said with a small chuckle. "You have no idea." I said quietly to myself as she got up. "I'm gonna go make your favorite for breakfast, I bet you'd love that!" She said to me and I flashed her a soft smile. "I'd like that very much, Nicole. Thank you." "Anything for my love." She said as she kissed my cheek and made her way to the kitchen. I sighed as I watched her walk away. It may seem like everything is fine between us but it wasn't that, it was nowhere near that. I was far from happy, I just wanted to be with Paige. And she probably just wants to get as far away from me as possible. 'Maybe it should check on her...' I thought to myself as I grabbed my phone off the nightstand and began to text her.

Dean: Hey. 9:36 am

Paige: Hey. 9:37 am

She replied back to my message no longer than one minute later, maybe she was missing me too.

Dean: How you been? 9:38 am

Paige: I've been doing fine. You? 9:39 am

Dean: I'm okay..I really miss you. 9:40 am

Paige: I miss you too.. 9:42 am

I could feel my heart began to beat faster in my chest. As soon as I read her message, I just felt this sudden wave of excitement inside of me. She actually missed me as well, and that made me happy, in a way.

Dean: I was wondering if we could meet up someplace. 9:44 am

Paige: Sure, we can meet up. Where tho? 9:45 am

Dean: How about the pier? I know you like it there. 9:46 am

Paige: I'd like that. I'll met you there right before sundown. Sound good? 9:48 am

Dean: Perfect. So, around 7? 9:49 am

Paige: Yup! So we can watch the sunset. 9:50 am

Dean: Awesome, I'll see you then. 9:51 am.

Paige: Okie dokie! 9:52 am

I had smiled to myself as I set my phone back down onto the table. I was happy that I was going to see Paige again, later on today. That was all I really ever wanted, then Nikki walked back into the room smiling. "Oh good babe, you're already smiling! I wanted to show you something before I get started on our breakfast." She said to me as she held up a small shirt that had the words on it 'I love my daddy'. The shirt was perfect and it made me smile even more. "That's a cool shirt, Nicole. Did you pick it out yourself?" "Of course, you know I always pick out the best stuff. And I had a feeling you'd like this one, because I think it's perfect for our little one." She said. "You're right, I do like it. No, I love it. Just as much as I love you." "Aww, you're so sweet, baby. Just for that, you get extra bacon for breakfast!" She said with a soft laugh then walked back out of the room. I laughed a bit then it kind of turned into a sigh. I was torn between two very special women in my life and it made me feel like I was going to have to make a choice, again.

Later that same day

I sat and waited for Paige at the end of the pier bridge. I got here a little earlier than 7, because I felt like I needed some time for myself. I really did need it. Maybe if I did some thinking, I would be able to clear my head...but it wasn't working exactly how I thought it would. As much as my mind was on Paige, Nikki remained in my head as well. She is the mother of my unborn child, so it would be hard not to think about her at anytime. But just like her, Paige was stuck in my head as well. She's the one who changed my life for the better. Not only did I gain so much from her, but she's the one who I call my best friend, I don't know where I would be without her.
Just after I finished thinking, Paige had been walked up and sat down on the end of the pier bridge next to me. "Hi.." she said with her legs crossed and looked out towards the lake. "Hey.." I said softly as I looked out towards the lake as well. It was an awkward silence out here. Neither one of us said anything after we greeted each other. It felt like I didn't even know her right now, as if we were slowly drifting apart. I couldn't let that happen. I had to break this silence. "Listen, I need to talk to you." "If it's bad, I don't even want to hear it, Dean. Let's just relax, and..." She said and I decided to cut her off. "I miss you, okay? I miss my best friend..is that so bad?" I said to her. She let out a sigh and looked down. "No. That isn't bad at all...I miss you too actually." "Why are we doing this? We can't sit here and act like we don't exist to each other, Paige." I said. "I don't want us to do it, but what if it's the right thing to do?" She asked and looked at me. "If it's the right thing to do, then I want to do the wrong thing. I want to have my best friend in my life. I don't want to act like she doesn't exist." "It's hard to just be friends after we once fell in love with each other, and you know that." She said to me. "Maybe I never fell out of love with you in the first place. I've never stopped loving you...and don't you stop loving me." I said to her. "I've never stopped loving you. It's not that easy. I just want what's best for you, Dean. You need to figure out what's best for yourself." Paige said. "And what if your what's best for me?" "If I was what's best for you, we'd still be together, happily. Sure Nikki would be having your baby, but that wouldn't have stopped us from loving one another." "And it hasn't. She's having my baby, and that hasn't changed the way I feel for you." I said as I looked at her. "It also hasn't changed the way you feel about her either. When you're with me, you want to be with her. When you're with her, you want to be with me. Who do you love?" She asked me and to be honest, I've never stopped loving either one of them. I don't think I'll ever stop loving either of them, it's not that easy. "I love you both.." I said to her softly. "But you love her more, cause she has your baby, and that made you want to be with her." She said as she stood up. "Wait, where are you going?" I asked her. "I'm going back home, I can't deal with this right now. I'm not over you and talking about this only makes things worse for me." "Please Paige, don't leave...I need you, you don't understand." I said to her as she turned to me slowly and faced me. "Your family needs you, go be there for them." She said as she turned back around and began to walk away. I let out a sigh as I watched her walk away from me. 'I'll never stop loving you..' I thought as I turned back to the lake and began to watch the sunset all by myself.