Lovesick: Part 2

Same Old Love

(Paige P.O.V)

Everything in my love life seems to be repeating itself lately. First Dean and I are friends, he gets upset and I try to help him out, then we end up falling madly in love with each other then Nikki walks back into his life with something, and he leaves me for her, once again. Am I stupid for falling for him in the first place? Then giving him a second chance after what he did to me the first time? Me of all people know that I am worth more than this, I can't keep making the same mistakes and hurting myself. Or having someone who I thought was my best friend, keep hurting my heart like this. It isn't good for me and it hurts like hell. Being heartbroken is no joke and even though this is the second time around, it just hurts my heart even more. Dean meant the world to me. He was my everything and I still want to believe that he is, but he left me, again. Everything that we had just turned into nothing, in an instant. Just like what happened before, nothing's changed.
As of right now, I was left in pieces. Laying around in the same hotel room where the current break up just happened. Seconds became minutes, minutes became hours, and hours felt like days...which is ironic because 2 days have passed by since we broke up. It was currently early Monday morning and I was supposed to have been up and left for Monday Night Raw tonight. But in all honesty, I didn't feel like doing anything. I haven't gotten up, eaten, showered, nothing. I haven't moved from this bed since that Friday night. I hated being so lovesick. I wouldn't be this way over just anyone though. Dean was the best boyfriend I've ever had. Also my best friend who knew everything about me, including all of my secrets. I never opened up to anyone the way I did with him, he had my heart...then he took it and smashed it into pieces. Which sucked. I let out a sigh as I reached over, grabbing my phone, which I haven't touched since Friday. I turned it on and seen that I had several missed calls and text messages. A few from Rosa, Foxy, AJ, Seth, and most missed calls from my mum. Geez! I'd return their calls when I would finally decide to get up from bed. Lord knows when that'll be. I scrolled through my messages and seen one from Dean that simply said 'I love you'. I didn't dare respond to him. As much as he made me sad, there was still a feeling of anger inside of me. He doesn't mean that. He's probably hand and hand with Nikki right now. Probably talking about their baby and planning shit already. Which got me to thinking...'why are you still laying here being all lovesick and shit? Get your ass up outta bed and get to work! No man is worth this many tears, bish. He's with her, already moved onto the next one, AGAIN! Stop your crying and put on that brave face.' I loved this side of my thoughts, so I listened and did as I was told. I wasn't about to let this get the best of me, not again. 'Head up, stay strong. Fake a smile, and move on.'

I'm so sick of that same old love, that shit, it tears me up
I’m so sick of that same old love, my body's had enough
Oh (that same old love)
I’m so sick of that same old love, feels like I've blown apart
I’m so sick of that same old love, the kind that breaks your heart
Oh (that same old love)

4 hours later

After finally getting up out of bed, showering, getting all of my things together, and finally arriving to the next city for Raw, it took me nearly 4 hours, but I made it. I still wore my brave face and I wasn't going to let anything stop me from wearing it. No more tears, it was time to be strong.
I walked into the arena, luggage in hand and made my way to the women's locker room. That is, until I seen Seth and he had stopped me in my tracks.
'Head up'..."Hey, Paige. I've been calling ya, where you been all weekend?" He asked me as he took a bite of a sandwich he was eating. I looked up at him "I've been back at the hotel all weekend." "Really? You weren't answering the phone, so I called Dean and asked him where you were. He said he didn't know. That was kinda weird because you two are ways together. Actually, where's he?" Seth asked me.
'Stay strong'..."Actually, I'm not sure. We broke up on Friday night after the live event.." I said to him while I shrugged my shoulders. "Wait, you guys what?! You're kidding right?" He asked and I just shook my head. I really didn't want to talk about this but I managed to stay strong and tell Seth everything's that's happened. "Damn Paige, I'm really sorry. He went and knocked Nikki up? That's insane!" "Tell me about it." I said. "Well, I know Dean is a close friend of mine but you're also a close friend of mine too, Paigey. I really care about you and I'll never forgive Dean for hurting you like this again. But I know Dean better than anyone does, so I think you should just let him be. Don't fall for him again, I don't want you getting hurt, you hear?" Seth said in the most concerned way possible.
'Fake a smile"... I gave him a smile but it was actually real. It felt good to have someone looking out for me and it really meant a lot to me. "I really appreciate that, Sethie. Thank you. I'll do what you say, I trust you." I said to him. "Anything for you, Paigey. If you need anything, you know where to find me, I'm only one call away. One thing I'll do for you right now is go and smack Dean upside the head, when I see him." He said as we both laughed at his comment. "Have fun with that, Seth. He deserves it." I said. After talking, we gave each other a hug then parted ways.
'Move on...I continued to make my way to the women's locker room, then opened up the door and walked inside. As soon as I walked inside I was trapped into a tight embrace by two people, Foxy and Rosa. "Okay, okay! I still need to breathe ladies!" I said as they finally let me go. "Why haven't you been answering your phone, Paige?! Foxy shouted at me. "Yeah, we've been worried sick about you. We didn't know where you were, or if you were okay, or..." Rosa was going on before I cut her off. "Why were you two worried about me anyways? I thought you hated me for dating Dean?" I said with the emphasis on 'dating Dean'. "Paige, we may not like your relationship but at the end of the day we still care about you." Rosa said. "Exactly and when we call you over 200 times, we can't help but to think the worst." Foxy said. "I'll admit, I wasn't okay, but I'm here now, so that's all that matters. Thank you, girls but I'm fine, really." "Wait...what do you mean by you weren't okay?" Rosa asked. I let out a sigh as I sat down on a chair. "Well, turns out you girls were right. Dean and I broke up...and left me for Nikki, again. And this time around, Nikki's pregnant." I explained to them. They both looked at me in shock. "That's it, I'm gonna kill him!" Foxy shouted. "No, no! Calm down, Fox. Nobody's killing anybody." "Paige he hurt you, you have to at least let me hurt him!" Foxy said. "It's fine. I just decided to stop getting involved in the same old love story. I want out and I got that. If he's happy with her then so be it. I'll just have to move on. Believe me, I'm good. It hurts a little but I'll be fine." "Are you sure you're okay, love?" Rosa asked. "Yes, I promise." I said to them and faked a smile as I stood back up. "Well, maybe not completely. I haven't eaten anything in 2 days. Can we please, please, please go to catering?!" I asked with a soft laugh and they laughed right along with me. "Sure, we can go." Rosa said as the three of us walked out of the locker room and down the hallway to the catering area. That's when I seen Dean and Nikki holding hands as they walked in the other direction...that's also when my heart sank.
'Head up, stay strong. Fake a smile, and move on'...was now just a memory.