Lovesick: Part 2

Open Your Eyes

(Paige P.O.V)

After that passionate kiss Dean and I shared, I found myself going with him into his personal locker room he had that night. I know it was the wrong thing to do, and it was also very risky, but we ended up having sex in here. Anyone could've been walking around in the hallways, including our bosses, Triple H, Stephanie McMahon, or worse...Vince McMahon. So, we tried to be as quiet as possible. It may have been easy for Dean to keep quiet but definitely not easy for me. Moans filled up the room as he would thrust in and out of me deeply, but he used his hand to cover my mouth whenever I moaned too loud. He knew exactly how to please every inch of my body and it felt so good when he did it. It felt so amazing, passionate, it felt so...right. Even if it was just on a couch in a locker room. Sex with him wasn't just any kind of sex, but it was love. We made love. I could feel it throughout my entire body. The way he kissed me sent chills down my spine, the way his hands caressed my skin made me have butterflies in my stomach, and just the look in his eyes showed me nothing but love. Deep and passionate love. It's one of the best feelings in the world.

I pulled my shirt back on, finally getting redressed after spending about half an hour in Dean's locker room, doing you know what. The lower part of my body ached, but the reason why was well worth it. We smiled at each other as we finished getting dressed, soon after he lifted me up, putting my back against the wall and kissed my lips passionately, once again. I wrapped my arms and legs around him, couldn't help but smile against his lips as we kissed. He just made me so happy, it was indescribable. "I'm just..so addicted to you." He said to me. "You drive me crazy and I love it. I love this effect you got on me and I just can't shake it off.." he continued on. "Maybe it's a sign that you and I are meant to be?" I asked him but he just looked at me before putting his head down a bit. "What's wrong? You don't agree with me?" I asked before he set me back down to the floor. "I want to agree with you but Nikki believes that she and I belong together." "If she and you belonged together, then why did you and I just fuck in your locker room?" I said, starting to get angry a bit. It's not that I hated Nikki, but she isn't exactly my favorite person. It's like she's ruining what Dean and I have...maybe she felt the same way about me, just vice versa. "Because I love you, Paige! I want to be with you but I can't have you the way I want to have you." He said to me. "What do you mean?" "I can't have you because of Nikki. I want to make her happy, and by doing that I have to be there for her and the baby." "You're putting her happiness before your own, Dean. You're only with her because of the baby..." I said and he cut me off. "That is not the only reason why I'm with her!" He shouted. "Then what else is there?! That's what you're making it sound like. You're in a relationship with her because of a baby. When you really want to be with me!" I shouted back. "I love her.." he said and I only scoffed. I wasn't falling for any of that. If he really loved her, he wouldn't be here with me. "But I love you too." "What you're doing is wrong, Dean. You can't love the both us in that way..." I said softly, trying to fight back tears once again. "I can't help that I love the both of you. It's not my fault that you both mean something to me." He said and I just walked over to his door, then looked back at him. "Go be with your girlfriend, Dean. I'll make it easy for you, so you won't have to choose between us. You love her, then be with her. I'm not a back up plan, and I'm not a second choice." I said, then opened up the door and walked out right before my tears could fall. It was hard to do so, and let go that easily after what we just did, but it was the right thing to do.

The Next Day

Once again, I was feeling all sad, but screw not eating when I'm sad. Food is my life and right now, this bucket of ice cream was my best friend. I wasn't trying to eat my pain away, I was just eating it because it was good. And I was in the mood for ice cream, who doesn't like ice cream, right? I sighed as I stuffed yet another spoonful of the vanilla ice cream into my mouth. It made me feel less depressed and being back at my house in Tampa really put the icing on the cake, but I sure did wish Dean was here with me. When will I ever learn to just let go? 'You can't let go of what you love, Paige.' I thought to myself. 'But when you love something, it's best to let it go'. I continued on with my thinking. But as soon as I heard my doorbell ring, I immediately jumped out of my thoughts. I wasn't expecting any guests at all, so I was quite confused as to who could be at my door. 'Maybe it was Dean?' I thought to myself before getting up.
I stood up and walked towards the door, still very confused. I put my hand on the doorknob before twisting it, then slowly opened the door up. And to my surprise, it certainly was not Dean, but even better. "AJ! OMG!" I shouted with the hugest smile on my face and she returned the same smile as we gave each other the tightest hug ever. "Hey, Paige!" She shouted back. I basically pulled her inside of my house as we hugged, then finally let her go. "I haven't seen you in so long, what are you doing here? How'd you know I'd be home?" I asked her. "I know, it's been forever. I knew you'd he home because I remember you always go home when the show is nearby your place." She explained as I closed the door, then walked back to my living room with her. "Also, I've been calling you during the whole weekend, you never returned my calls, so I was worried!" "I'm so sorry, AJ. I was going to but a lot has been on my mind lately, so I never got the chance." I explained. That's when she gave me a look. "Ok..." She said as she sat down on my couch and patted the seat next to her. "Are you gonna keep standing there or are you gonna come sit, and explain to me everything's that's been going on?" She said then I  let out a sigh then sat down next to her. AJ was one of my best friends, next to Dean. She taught me a lot of things, she always knew how to make me feel better when I was feeling down, and she always makes me laugh when I really needed to. We were so close when we worked together in the WWE, that is, before she retired. I was devastated the day she retired because I knew I would miss her so much. I'm always on the road, traveling with WWE and she's busy doing things in the new chapter of her life. So we've kinda drifted apart after her retirement. But she's happy outside of WWE, so that's what matters the most. I felt like she passed her torch onto me at WrestleMania 31, and ever since then, I've continued on with her legacy, as well as my own. (#FreaksAndGeeks for life! ♡)
I explained to AJ everything's that's been going on between Dean and I. I had just finished up with it and it already had felt like hours have passed by, but it's only been about half an hour. "Ok, look. Paige, you really need to open up your eyes on this. I can see the love Dean has for you, but there's also love there for Nikki. From what you've told me, I know that you love him too but you have to let go of what you love, if it comes to that." She explained to me. "I really want to let go, but it's so hard to." "Paige, if a guy loves you, he wouldn't be having any feelings for any other woman. You're worth so much. Know yourself and know your worth." She said and in my head, I knew she was absolutely right. But, my heart was telling me otherwise. I'm so grateful to have a best friend who only wants what's best for me. I want what's best for me too, but in order to know what's best for myself, I need to know my self worth. "You're absolutely right, AJ. Thank you. I'll need to put a lot of thought into that." I said to her softly. "Anytime, Paige." She said as she reached over and grabbed my ice cream bucket. "And next time when I come over, don't eat all the damn ice cream, bish!" She said and caused the both of us to laugh. "I promise, I'll keep an extra bucket for you in the freezer!" "And donuts too! You know how much I love donuts!" She said with another laugh. I'm so glad she came to visit me randomly like this, it really helped me out. She had me smiling, made me feel better, and taught me something once again. 'Open up your eyes and know your worth.' A lesson that was now about to be put into action.