Hiding away in the strawberry fields

Why

Npov

Did he just make up a nickname for me? I panicked, pertending to be asleep. Isn't that what friends do? Or even boyfriends?

No. I shouldn't think like that. He is probably straight. He probably hates you. He probably is just doing his job.

Why did he care if you were tired if he didn't care?

Because it's his job.

He could have just left you there but he didn't!

That's also his job.

Why did he make up a nickname then? His job?

Yes. He has to be friends with the patients.

I felt Will kiss my forehead.

WHY DID HE KISS MY FOREHEAD?!? AAAAAAH!!!HELP! HELP! I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO! I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!

I told you you weren't ready for this!

No you didn't!

Well...I was right though! You don't want to date him.

Yes I do!

Then why did you freak out so badly?

Because I wasn't ready!

For?

Him to kiss me...

That is correct.

Well what do I do then with these useless feelings about him then?

Bottle them up. Like normal.

Okay....yeah...that sounds good.

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I had nightmares again.

"Bianca? Bianca where are you?" I screamed.

No answer.

"Percy? Where is Bianca?"

I hoped he was going to point towards the archery fields, because it was the one place I didn't check. I didn't check it because Bianca hated archery.

"She...she died. Nico, I'm so sorry! I couldn't save-"

"NO! YOU PROMISED!YOU PROMISED PERCY!" I sobbed.

Percy backed away a couple steps. Skeletons erupted from the ground, and went after him. He didn't run.

He stayed there.

"Nico?" He still didn't run "Nico listen-"

"NO. YOU LISTEN. YOU DIDNT KEEP YOU PROMISE! You didn't...and now she's dead...AND ITS ALL YOUR FAULT!"

"Nico. Your okay. What's wrong?" Was that wills voice? Why did he care if something was wrong?

It's his job the voice taunted.

I opened my eyes.

"Why do you care?!" It came out rude, but that's okay. I couldn't let him know I loved him. That would probably be bad. Then he would know I am gay. Then he would bully me for it. Then he would tell everyone. Then they would bully me for it, too. I shuddered.

     He glanced to his left."Because I'm your doctor."

      "Your lying. Looking to your left is a sign of lying."

      "N-no it's not!"

      "Yes it is. Your lying."

       He pouted.

      "That's right. Tell me why you want to know."

       "No. I don't want to." He looked to the left again.

       "Yes you do. Your lying again."

       He put his head in his hands.

        "I want to tell you but I don't want you to know..." He did not look to the left.

        "Okay. I'll put on headphones then."

          He glared at me. "You know that's not what I meant!"

          I smirked.

          He sighed and left, giving up on me. Just like everybody else.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~time skip to 9:45 at night~~~~~~
I woke up and felt dry tears on my face.

Ugh.

Then I realized, I could probably shadow travel away! I wasn't tired anymore!

I marched up to a shadowy wall and thought of the place I went to when I couldn't go to my cabin. The river. The stars were beautiful right about now. I walked straight into the wall and arrived at the river. I laid down and gazed at the stars.