Chapter 24:
I honestly don't know what has gotten into me. One second I am fine and then the next one someone ticks me off. I swear there is something wrong. Or I am going mentally insane. Everything has gone by in a blur. So many things have happened and to many people have been finding more people. We haven't reached our objective of going into a town thing, getting supplies and medical help. We just keep stopping. I feel like I am getting annoying to everybody. I spend my days pacing around the kitchen waiting for new information. Then I freak out at people for not telling me things. What happens when something goes wrong and there is information I don't know about?! Lea may know and it drives me insane. I guess I have too much anxiety. That or I am going mentally insane. Yet again, who wouldn't in a world like this. Writing everything down seems to be my only way of catching the sanity I have left in me. As little as it is I would love to keep it all. I would also love to know what other people are thinking. Then I could see what everyone's plan is. Maybe that is my problem. Maybe I am trying to much to be a leader when I can't. Maybe I should just shut up and be the person in the back that is more likely dead weight. Or maybe I should just stay on this roof forever. Or at least until the apocalypse ends. Or when and if we go into the tones they can leave me there to become one of the guards again. Like I was before I found Lea. Or quit and ran away and found Lea and Bex. I remember that day. I sat on my knees begging for them to not shoot me. They didn't. But what if they did? What if they thought I was a zombie because of the blood on my shirt or scars across my face from the battle I had happen just earlier. That is when I ran away. I was so highly ranked I have no clue why I left. Yes I do. The government sucks. I still have my I.D. It's weighing down on the bottom of my bag. That's how we could get into the town without trouble. I have to tell Lea. Wait, I have to back down. No telling Lea. I'll just go with whatever plan they come up with. That will work. Or it should work. I don't even know. All I know is that I am on a roof. I don't even know how I got up here. I guess I like roofs. They help me think. And when I am on them the fresh air and I am not pacing around the kitchen or bothering anybody. It is a way to keep my chill. I also get to look out for things. The view is large here. I can see at least a mile away. So if Zombies were to ever come near us I could tell everybody. If I knew where they were. Here we go with the anxiety thing again. Gosh I will just shut up. Until the next time I am able to write. Hopefully inside the town. -Ash
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Ash's POV:
I put away my notebook and pen after ripping out the page I just wrote. With a flick of my lighter the paper goes up in flames. It flies off in the wind burning off and breaking off the ashes.
"Until another day." I whisper watching what was left of the paper fly off into the wind.
Standing up I walk around the roof finding a flat area or an area where two parts of the roof meet to make a crevasse. I find one right near where I was sitting before. Just now when I sit there I can rest my back on the roof. That and I won't be tilted downward. I can still see everything I did before.
The wind settles down as the calming sounds of what is left of nature. Soon enough I find myself falling asleep as the sun sets.
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A/N: Okay. I am super sorry this is a really short kind of chapter but you get to read one of Ash's notes! That has to be something. The note was pretty big at least. Anyway. Thanks for reading and I hope you enjoyed. If not it is just my chapter and Ammelia and Jasmine can help bring better life to the story. I ran out of idea's with something to do in this chapter so I wrote this. I was meant to have someone journal with my chapters anyway. That way you can keep up with the characters thoughts. Ash seems to be the only one who really does it anyway, so yeah. Hope you liked it and vote and fan both SquirtMarie and Starshine167 ! -Alexis
