This is the walk, the walk of shame, the walk of misery, the walk of pain, the walk of insanity. This is trying to let go but keeping hope bundled inside of you, close to your heart. This is the devil in your head that keeps saying, "give up!! give up!! just let go you idiot!! they're not going to make it!!". This is the memory that you won't let go for as long as they live. This is the walk down the hallway of tattered family's grouped around a hospital bed.
I walked down around Kai's hospital bed. Jay sat in the hallway with Cole. He nuzzled his head into Cole's shoulder as Cole patted his shoulder.
I held onto the extra sheets of Kai's hospital bed. I placed my head in between his elbow and abdomen near his pecs. My body fell onto the ground and I let out all of my tears while muttering made up words under my breath.
"I love you Kai. I regret everything I've ever done but loving you. You're my everything, you're my world. Seeing you like this is like watching my world burn into thousands of tattered pieces. Kai, losing you is worse then-then.... Losing you is worse then losing my own mind. It's just like it times ten. My body feels weak and I feel unworthy of living. You gave me everything I needed. Please be my guardian angel again. Please hold on. Please be okay. Please please please please ple- ple- please", I pulled at the extra sheets and wiped my tears on Kai's still arm.
I felt a tap on my shoulder and saw Kai's arm wrapped around my shaking body. My face was streaked with glimmering lines of tears. Kai smiled at me and held my face in his pale hand.
"Oh my god", I paused, "I love you Kai I truly do love you!!", I squealed joyfully as I stood up and threw my body onto Kai's, hugging him.
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Colours Of Fear
Fanfiction"I was expecting a lime green celebration", My words were crisp. "And I was expecting to be a ninja again", Kai had a blank expression on his face. "Fair", I left the door open as I stormed out beaming a florescent red. Anger. ---- Okay so low key t...
