Colours Of Fear

and i've moved further than i thought i could

(Listen to London Heart by Tenterhook to set the mood)
    I woke up still in the warm embrace of Kai. I ruffled his hair and he flickered his eyes open.

"Hey hot head", I giggled and pushed myself up off the couch, leaving Kai's arms.

"You were cute last night", He stretched his arms and stood up, yawning as he spoke softly.

I winked at him and made us a cup of coffee. I just couldn't stop smiling because of the fact that we loved each other again.

"Let's tell each other all of our deep dark secrets", I said falling onto the couch and sipping my coffee.

"Okay", Kai sat up and put his arm around me.

"So I'll start, on New Year's I contemplated whether I should move away with you and try making a new life in a new country together", I nodded at Kai.

Kai stuttered a bit and then said, "Z-Zane and I had a thing together, I was always drunk when it happened b-but it was more then just New Year's I guess. He told me that it was several other times", Kai sat silent after that statement.

I looked at Kai blink like he was in shock and shake his head trying to forget the cringe worthy memory. Sipping my coffee I looked at Kai grit his teeth together.

"But did you like it?", I smiled softly.

"N-No no! Not at all!", Kai remarked.

"Would you do it again? But with me?", I placed my hand on Kai's cheek as he blushed.

"Eh..... Er.... Yeah.... Yeah", Kai squinted his eyes and scooted closer to me.

I twirled his hair around my finger and nuzzled my head into his shoulder. He placed his head on top of mine and closed his eyes. The room smelt of Starbucks coffee aroma. My cheeks gleamed a rosy pink and his did too. I sat up and kissed his smiling face.

"What's up giggly?", I sat on his lap, placing my hands on his poking out ribs and pecked at his lips.

Kai put one hand behind my neck and the other on my waist. I dropped my coffee mug onto the ground and let it shatter. My lips grazed against Kai's and he kept laughing because of god knows why, but he was happy. Our bodies grinded against each other as we made out. Kai didn't kiss with his eyes open anymore, he trusted me. I pulled off his tight red shirt exposing his well built, fit body.

I stared at Kai for a bit and then continued kissing him. Kai pushed me away and laughed.

"Wait.... Wait.... You haven't broken up with LillyAnne", he smiled at me grab his face.

"Then I guess I'm a player, huh?", I continued on with kissed Kai's soft lips.

"How can I trust you?", Kai held my wrists from grabbing his face and smirked slyly at me.

"Step one, lets get equal here", I giggled, pulling off Kai's skinny jeans so we both sat in our boxers, "step two, just let yourself go".

I let Kai suck my neck and hold my waist against his. Kai wants necessarily 'sexy' but he was extremely 'cute' the way to he kissed me.

"But you don't want to love me, I'm just a good kisser so you keep me around", Kai said in between kissing and then picked me up. He placed me down by the stools in the kitchen and dressed himself again.

"Call me up when you just want to use me like a piece of fucking trash again", He shook his head and ripped his black leather jacket out of my hands.