Colours Of Fear

but i missed you more than i thought i would

"Hey, Kai, now I need you to just say something to me. I do really care about you and I realize I've been a douchebag lately but I do really love you", my voice had a sappy tone.

I've been calling Kai all day long and he hadn't answered till about evening time. All you could hear on his end is loud screaming and music.

"Kai", I said placing the phone down on the counter, on speaker phone.

I couldn't make out if he was yelling to me or friends. Who was he with, is all I could think about. Truly I wanted Kai to be safe and feel loved, but feel loved and safe by me, not anybody else.

"Com'on", I started to tear up.

At last I hear a breathy laugh and then silence. The phone screen turned black, revealing he had hung up. My heart thud nervously and fast. I couldn't watch Kai fall apart like this because of me.

Grabbing Kai's gray Oklahoma sweatshirt, I walked out of my dark apartment to find Kai. My car parking in the same spot as always was dirty with mud and leaves from the woods. I hadn't seen anyone around until Cole walked out from the alley way behind the apartment complex.

Tears were streaming down his face leaving streaks down his rosey cheeks. He collapsed near my knees sobbing and clearly drunk.

"I fucked up", he softly said throwing an empty beer bottle.

I just stared wide eyed at Cole lean on my legs.

"M-.... Me too", my voice was soft and quiet almost to the point you couldn't hear me.

"I hooked up with Nya and Jay found out because Kai told him and I-I just can't figure out why he told.... Kai's not that kind of person", Cole refused to let me speak or move.

"I hooked up with Kai", I sank down and sat on the ground still tranced in a deadlock.

Cole turned his head and looked at me close my eyes, letting thousands of tears stream down my crimson cheeks.

"Don't worry, he's not mad", Cole smirked at me like Kai did when he looked at me.

How could Kai not be mad, I furiously thought how an egotistical guy like Kai wouldn't be mad at someone who's been an ass this whole time and is just now realizing it.

My heart almost beat out of my chest and I watched Kai walk towards us, sipping out of a brown beer bottle. He threw himself at the car, sounding like it had hurt him. I shot up, startled from the loud noise it had made.

"Is it my time?", Kai made a grimace look at me  and threw his arm around my neck, "because I decided I don't care anymore", he smirked.

"W-....", Kai placed his pointer finger over my chapped lips.

"Sh".

"But Kai", I said grabbing his wrist.

"You're too cute", he laughed at me.

Next thing I knew I was shoved up against the car door and Kai was three centimeters away from my face talking about random subjects.