Obsession

chapter 5: friends?

"Hello?"......."Hello?" Tracer said from the other side of the line. I didn't know whether to hang up or say something back. "Hello??"

"H-high."

"Hey Aaron. Um. I uh know the other night was kind of awkward with your mum and um sorry about that. But...you know it's okay. It's not like just because of that i wouldn't want you as a friend anymore. Or any of us for that matter."

"Did you tell everyone?"

"No. I didn't." I sighed with relief. "I know you didn't want me to know but i have other gay friends and I'm okay with that just as long as your not trying to make a go at me or something." He laughed nervously as if that might offend me, and in a way it did but he was still willing to be my friend and that made it all worth it.

"Really?" I asked. "You'll still me my friend?"

"Yeah. Im not going to just throw you out for one little reason."

"Thanks." I said grinning.

"You still going to come over tonight?"

"Do you still want me to?"

"Yeah, course." He was so nice.

"Okay. I will. What time?"

"Around six."

"Alright. I'll see you then."

"Okay. Bye."

"Bye." I hung up the phone and felt relieved. I was so scared he would have thought me gross. But he didn't. I felt somewhat alive again.

I picked the phone back up again and dialed Shane's number. "Hey Shane could you pick me up tonight?"
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I was so happy Tracer didn't hate me and wanted me to hang out with them still that i totally forgot about my face that was now worse after a second beating.

Everyone. All my freinds asked me about it. It was almost colostraphobic. I thought i was going to suffocate on all their questions.

But luckily Tracer still held good to his bargain and was better at coming up with excuses. "Guy's we were out biking the other day and he crashed. Just bam! Right on his face." He said with much emphasis in his words. Luckily they couldn't see the rest of my body i thought.

"Dude that must have hurt." Jason said.

"Hey is Nadia still coming?" Colton asked way off subject as usual.

My mind froze. Nadia? She was going to be coming over?

"Yeah she's going to be coming in a little while. She had to do something first."

"Ok cool. My..."

They kept chatting but my thoughts drowned them out. I felt a little trapped. Like someone was trying to get a piont across. 'Im okay with that just as long as your not trying to make a go at me or something'. Tracer's words echoed in the back of my mind. Was he trying to make a piont to me that he was taken or was he just having the girl over that he wants to be his girlfriend.

Then there was a knock on the door. "Ill get it!" Jason yelled. Once he opened it in came Sami, Jason's girlfriend, and Sophia, Colton's girl.

"So i take it this isn't just a 'guys get together'." I said to Justin who was the only other one without a girlfriend. That didn't bother him though. He liked his freedom.

"Nope. They said it was going to be a couples night. But of course still needed the bachelors to make it fun." He laughed. I tried laughing but it didnt sound right.

I felt oddly left out as we watched the movie. I was alone while everyone had there girlfriends snuggling with them. I felt betrayed in a way. Why hadn't Tracer told me. Was he trying to make me feel bad.

My head felt like it was expanding with questions and it began to ache. I closed my eyes for a few minutes, and the next thing i knew i was being woke up by Eli. My head hurt even worse and i felt sick everytime i moved. I groaned as i sat up.

"Hey man you okay?" Eli asked.

I closed my eyes to shield them from the light inside the room. "Yeah i, i just have a bad headache."

"Oh dang that sucks. I'm heading out now, if you want i can drop you off at your place."

"Isn't it a bit out of the way though." I said putting my hands on my head.

"Nah thats fine. Its only like 15 extra minutes." Eli was always so nice to everyone. I wondered if he would be if he knew the truth.

"Okay, if your sure." He shook his head.

Tracer walked over then. "Is everything alright?" Then seeing me he frowned. "Aaron, you dont look so good."

"I. I have a bad headache."

"Im going to take him home cause im hadin out anyway." Eli said to Tracer. "Gracy's gonna leave with Sophia." (Gracy being hus girlfriend.)

"Okay. I hope you will feel better Aaron." Tristan said sympathetic.

"Thanks." I said standing up but almost falling over from being light headed. Tracer caught me.

"Whow...maybe you should sit back down." He suggested half holding my weight up.

I closed my eyes for a minute leaning again him for support. "No im okay." I said then stood up straight on my own. "I just need to go home an get some sleep."

"Okay." Tracer said concerned. I was glad he still cared if i was okay or not. We all walked over to the door and before stepping out Tracer gave me a little hug. Just for a second. I wished it could have been forever. "I hope you'll feel better."

"Thank you." I smiled. Well tried. "Goodnight." I walked to the car and got in. He went back inside. I could still feel his arms around me. He never knew how much i wanted that but had to go teasing. I wanted to die right then and there knowing he would never be mine.