Saying Goodbye (Inspired by true events)

Saying Goodbye Prologue

                                                Prologue

"Cari it's me Ali, can you come over?" My voice was frantic and my hands were shaking, I could barely hold the phone.

"Of course I was on my way to your place anyways." Cari added, her tone was calm but curious.

I hung up the phone pacing around my room.

Holding the letter in my hands the words became a blur from the tears I'm trying so desperately to hold back.There was a knock at my door only mere minutes after getting off of the phone with Cari as she walked in with a worried expression consuming her face.

" So what's going on?" She asked plopping down on the bed beside me.

" I- This has to be some stupid joke I got a letter from Nick which is weird since he's been ignoring me after what happened this summer. I thought he was going to apologize or I don't know tell me he missed me but not this...." I paused as I handed Cari the letter Nick wrote me.

Dear Ali,

I guess things didn't end the way they should have this summer you have to understand why we can't be together. It’s not that I don't want to be with you it was a mistake to say I didn't care about you or that our kiss didn't mean anything. If anything it meant too much. I'm 22 and you’re just 17, you have so much to learn and experience. You have to go out there and enjoy life.

I'm glad you came into my life and that I could help you, but I'm not what you think I am. I yelled at you that day you came to my cottage because I was ashamed that you had to see me like that . Truth is, I was the screw up and I’ve been beaten really badly my whole life so I knew what you were going through. I just couldn't take it anymore after this summer it took everything inside me not to pull you into my arms and tell you that you meant the world to me. Watching your face when you drove off I kept telling myself it's for the best that I'd screw you up as much as I screwed myself up.

After this summer I ran off to Europe to avoid some problems but they found me. I can't take it anymore so I wanted to say goodbye if you're reading this it's because I had the guts to do something I should have done along time ago. I'm going to miss you more than you know, I'm going to miss your sarcasm and outspokenness, the cute face you make when you're mad and especially the look on your face when you find out I loved you since you jumped off that boat.

I know I'm taking the coward's way out but try not to think less of me than you already do and there's nothing you could have said or done to change this.

Ali, I love you with all my heart.

-Nick

The colour drained in Cari's face. " Oh my god.... oh my god, he's screwing around with you right?"

"I don't know, the line's been busy I've called like every five minutes for the past hour." My eyes began to burn and tear up as I fought back the urge to cry.

I don't know how I was able to speak in sentences if this was a joke I'd kick him below the belt. A  joke like that was cruel however if it was real... My stomach clenched and tears started to swell again. I picked up the phone and dialed his number again this time it actually rang, I wasn’t sure if I felt relieved or sickened that I would soon find out what this letter meant.

"Hello." Said the familiar voice.

" Hey Riley can I talk to Nick for a minute." Once again my hand clenched itself automatically around the receiver of the phone .

"Ali I don't even know how to say this I'm really sorry-"

I cut him off almost screaming; " It's not true HE WOULDN'T DO THAT!" My chest tightened I couldn't stop shaking, Riley tried calming me down.