This is going to be a short chapter since I'm bored at the moment. Enjoy :)
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(Emily's p.o.v)
Colson: Aye girl, why didn't yo ass text me yet.
Me: Uh sorry. Busy.
Colson: To busy to talk to your Idol / best friend?
Me: uh yes...
Truth is. I wasn't to busy to text him. I couldn't handle texting him. Falling for him more and more. I know right? Why would Emily want to stop talking to her Idol. Not a Every day fan gets to. Well I don't want to fall in love and get hurt. I know it will happen. The more we get closer. The more I will fall. I know he won't catch me. Because Machine Gun Kelly doesn't get tied down. Everyone knows that. And I won't let myself get hurt. Not again. The pain is to unbearable. I can't take the pain. So I'm doing what's best. Break this little friendship off that we have. Block him. Whatever it takes for me to not fall........fall for him.
Colson: wait, what?
Me: I'm sorry Colson but. I don't want this little friendship that we have anymore. I don't need it. And I don't need you.
Colson: what the Fuck are you talking about Emily?
Colson: Hello, explain to me what the hell is going on. I'm confused as shit.
Colson: God damn it Emily, answer me now!!
Me: I don't want our stupid little friendship.
Colson: and what the hell did I do to lose this?
Me: nothing. Nothing at all. It's me.
Colson: damn right it's you!! Because I didn't do Jack shit. Now stop this. If you are on your period then eat some damn junk food like a good girl and sleep instead of doing this dumb shit!!
Colson: Yo!?
Me: I'm not on my monthly Jack ass. I just don't want this friendship anymore. I can do a hell lot better then you.
Colson: really now!? Ight, I gotchu. I don't need a dumb bitch like you anyways. I just wanted to get in your pants. Obviously that didn't work out. But that's fine. Yo pussy cat probably stank anyways. I can find some other good looking bitch to Fuck and Chuck anyways sweet heart.
Me: COLSON!!
Colson: it's not Colson you stupid bitch. It's MGK. Words hurt don't they haha. Get over it. Now I'm gonna go and Fuck those bitches that I was talking to at the races. Bye! ;)
I threw my phone across the room. It hit the wall and landed on the floor. I didn't care if I broke my phone at the moment. I could care less right now. Every word he said was like knives stabbing me over and over again. I couldn't comprehend what just happened.
I was only doing this for the best. For me. He don't care about me. About anyone but himself I wouldn't doubt it. So why in the hell did he say all that. I wasn't trying to be mean. I just didn't want to get hurt. I was pushing the pain away that was going to happen in the future. But why do I feel like it's my fault.
Because it is your fault. Everything is. This is why you are the way you are Emily. Because no one likes you. Haha I doubt they loved someone like you.
"SHUT UP SHUT UP"!!!
Truth hurts don't it?
Blocking out everything covered my ears. Put myself in a ball and rocked back and forth.
It's all my fault. It's true. I'm a horrible person. No loves me. I have no one. I fucked up my friendship with the only person who understands me. And I fucked it up. I'm so worthless. Why am I Fucking here?
I got up after my break down and decided to just take a shower and go to bed.
(Colsons p.o.v)
It's been 5 days since I talked to Emily. After the day I said all that shit I've been trying to get ahold of her and she hasn't answered my calls or text and I was getting worried.
I didn't mean any of it. I was just pissed off. She hurt me.
Those words hurt. Why didn't she want to be friends with me anymore. I did nothing. She probably hates me now. I don't know what to do. Just move on with my life or try and get this girl back.
I think I choose the second one.
Looks like I'm coming after you babe.
This 4 hour drive was killing me. Now I'm having seconds thoughts on why I'm doing this. But it's worth it. She's worth.
It was mid day so she is probably up. After I parked the car in front of her house I walked up to the porch and stand in front of the door. Why the Fuck and I nervous. I don't get nervous over shit like this man.
So I knocked. No answer.
Knocked again. No answer.
After about five minutes of knocking no one was answering. I know this is a bad idea but I gotta know if she's here ignoring me or no one is here.
So I did what Kells would do. I turned the nob and opened the door. Way to go on not locking it. Smart guys.
I made my way up stairs and went to the first door that was closes. I walked up to it and knocked.
"Emily are you in there, it's Colson. We need to talk. Hello? Please answer. Emily?"
No answer. So I just grabbed a pin I had in my pocket. Don't ask. I keep those around for Casey. Weird right.
I finally got the door opened after a few trys. My First look was the bed. And their she was. All I could see was her hair though.
"Emily? Emm. It's Colson baby girl." Why wasn't she answering. I was speaking my inside voice. I walked to the bed and pulled the covers down.
The first thing I saw were pills. And bottles. The sight of them made my heart stop. I couldn't breathe. It was like all the air was sucked out of me and everything was going slow motion.
"No no no no no no no!!" I grabbed and carried her to the bathroom.
"NO! Why why Emily!!"
I sat her on the floor while I did the same. I stuck my fingers down her throat. A few seconds later she pukes up the meds.
But she still wasn't breathing.
"DON'T YOU DIE ON ME EMILY. DON'T YOU FUCKING DARE DO THIS TO ME. DON'T DO THIS TO YOUR FAMILY. DON'T LEAVE ME EMILY. PLEASE WAKE UP. WAKE THE FUCK UP. I NEED YOU"!!
Mouth to mouth. Pressing my hands on her chest, pushing down after a couple second. I couldn't hold on the tears anymore. I started crying. Balling my eyes out and repeating on what I was doing.
I can't lose her. I won't lose her. She can't Fucking leave me like this.
And then it happens. She started breathing. Taking every breath like it was her last. I sat her up while she puked some more up. She was still in a daze. Like she didn't know what was happening. I sat her up against the wall and I cleaned her up. She was mumbling things I couldn't understand. Seeing her like this killed me.
I got up and grabbed her some water and made her take a few drinks. She was coughing a little bit. I pulled her forward and sat behind her and pulled her close to me. Whispering sweet nothings into her ear.
I didn't realize I was still crying...
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So I said this chapter was going to be short but I got into it and I couldn't stop. You know I have no life when I made two chapters today.
