Falling For My New Step Brother

He's Always In The Way

My heart stops the same time Dex's does.

My breath stops the same time his does.

Yet when his comes back mine is still gone.

This has been the fifth time his heart stopped this week and it's worrying me. When I get worried I ponder questions that I regret even thinking, like…

What if he dies?

What if his hearts stop forever?

Will you blame yourself since your pretty much the main reason?

I cringe trying to erase all the questions from my mind, yet they stay there not moving.

Jacob stands next to me as we watch Dex dozily sleep. Today Jacob insisted to visit Dex with me, and I was glad that he asked since I was pretty sure I wouldn't get through this alone.

He grabbed my hand circling his thumb on my palm.

"…Jacob?" I asked silently.

"yeah?" He asked gazing at my teary face.

"what if Dex dies?" I asked as my voice cracked.

"what if he doesn't?"

"w-what do you mean?" I stutterd.

"Will you go for him? Will you leave me for him?" He cried out.

I stare out not looking at anything particular and just looking at my possible future. Would I leave him? Would I tell Dex after waking up from a Coma that I like Jacob better? Will I date Jacob if Dex dies?

I close my eyes causing tears to fall from my eyes. "I d-don't know"

"God damn it Nicole why can't you chose? Why can't you decide? Why do you have to mess with us like this?"

"I didn't mean to…" I trailed off.

"Don't play dumb with me Nicole, Stop playing dumb and just chose now or never"

"w-what you can't do that!" I cry out.

"Whatever Nicole" Jacob muttered as he walked out of the room. I scurry after him "Jacob please don't!"

"please don't what?" He said instantly turning around.

"Don't leave…"

"why? I bet you would love it for me to leave you with your lover boy"

I roll my eyes "Can you have the decency to respect him? He's on his death bed for heavons sake!"

"No I will not, all this guy has ever done was come between you and me" He yelled.

At this point I could barely breath. It's true, after I kissed Jacob on the cheek Dex asked me out. This wasn't the first time Jacob said this, he said it back when they were yelling at each other when Jacob punched me. So maybe he has always thought that?

"Me and you were going so well at the lake house until he called"

"he was shot, Jacob!"

"remember when I told you I loved you?"

I nodded as I shivered from the memory of him telling me that.

"That same day Dex took you on a date"

I remember it like it was yesterday. Nearly the whole car ride I though about Jacob saying that. Later that day he called me a "bitch" and now I know why.

"I-I'm sorry I just have low self esteem so I don't really believe you when you say it"

after a minute too he nodded his head as if he understood.

"I do love you, Nicole I really do" Shivers ran up my spine as he said this.

"I love you too Jacob" I said finally, and I meant it.

He stepped closer to me, so close I felt his breath on my face.

He pulled me in, held my head with his hands and right when our lips were about to touch-

"You might want to come in here, Dex is awake" The nurse says oblivious to our almost kiss.

we pulled away quickly.

Dex is awake????!

Jacob smirked causing me to lift a brow.

"what?" I asked curious to his weird grin.

"Told you Dex always gets in the way"

I had to laugh at that.

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So how are you feeling about that almost kiss?

Dex is awake and very much alive how are you feeling about that?

(@xxcarterrxx made the cover and was the winner of the contest)

big thanks to freshstars1 for helping me out of this terrible writers block!

Thank you to all the people who read this book and my author notes!! ILYSM!!

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