Snapchat || S.M.

Chapter 15

I just liked spending time with him, and I have a feeling I don't appreciate it enough.

Me from 3 months ago would be so happy, because of a chance to even meet Shawn.

I didn't look at him as a star anymore. He was my internet friend. My best friend, in real life now.

I can not explain how much I love him. And when I say love, I am not talking about love between two in a relationship. Between two in a friendship.

He got in my life so quick but I know I am not ready to let him go.

With all that joy and happines of being around him, in my mind were coming some darker thoughts too.

Why did he decide to talk to me?
What if I wasn't the first one to screenshot that snap?
What if this is a scam and he would do the same to everyone?
Like a game.

I literally switched off out of situation for few moments that seemed like hours to me.

I got to think about so much stuff and I was probably absent for just few seconds.

A tear rolled down my face without my realization. It was a tear of joy. And fear. All together, I didn't know why it was there.

I got too emotional. I wiped it off in one swift movement before Shawn noticed. My eyes still focused at some undetected spot, still watering.

Shawn looked at me. Tensed. Really quick glance. He got closer to me. Looking in my eyes. I had a feeling he's looking in my soul.

I was still lost. I didn't realize my exit from reality on few seconds. I was just confused. He started:

-" I have an idea"
His voice was cheerful, it brightened up my face.
-" What?"
-" You gotta come to concerts in Amsterdam and London"
-" I didn't buy tickets and they are sold out"
He looked at me like 'is you stupid or is you stupid?' I knew what he was trying to do, I'm just trying to save some dignity and not hop into conclusions.
-" C'mon, backstage with me, there won't be a lot of people from my crew tho"
I nodded with a smile.
-" I can't wait" I whispered, going crazy on the inside. He chuckled.
-"Now..."