Shit.
I'm in the same car as the man who laid his hands on me, who smacked me repeatedly, who drank too much, and all he wanted was the damn sex.
Don't get me wrong he could be a total sweetheart and he usually was, things just got nasty.
We sat in silence the whole ride. He pulled into what I presumed to be his driveway.
"Well we're here," he said before getting out of the car.
I got out as well and we both shut our doors. He walked to my side and draped his arm over my shoulder and walked me to the door.
He put his arm back down to his side as he unlocked the door. I stepped inside with him.
It was actually really nice. He shut the door and led me to the couch.
I sit down and he takes a seat next to me.
"I've missed you," he said finally breaking the silence.
I pull out my phone to text my grandma but there's so many texts from Tyler.
I tear my eyes from the phone to look at him.
"I have too."
Had I really though?
I ignored Tylers texts and texted my grandma instead.
Josh: hey staying with a friend tonight if that's ok
Delivered: 8:47 pm
Read: 8:54 pm
Grandma: ok fine please don't hurt yourself.
Delivered: 8:55 pm
Read: 8:56 pm
I sighed and clicked the phone off and looked at Jason.
He hasn't changed much look wise.
He gave a smile and put his arm around me and pulled me closer.
He kissed my forehead and turned on the tv. It just didn't feel right.
I don't know why. Tyler was just a guy who didn't like me so why was I so worried.
I sighed and let it happen. I had to let myself be happy.
I tried to ignore that feeling and enjoy myself. I cuddled up to him and watched the tv.
I was gonna need something a lot stronger than just ignoring it.
"You got anything to drink?" I ask him.
He turns towards me. "Alcohol?"
"Yeah..." I said hesitantly. Sure I'm under age but whatever. I needed to loosen up anyways.
He smirks and nods. "How strong you need bud?" He asked. He knew me all too well,
I would only drink when I needed something strong.
"You know..." I mutter.
He smiles and stands walking off to the kitchen to get whatever he was gonna get me.
He came back and handed me a beer of some sort. It was his favorite so I wasn't surprised when he handed it to me.
I drank it and laid with him on the couch.
Hours passed and of course I ended up wasted.
I giggled and Jason drunkly kissed me again. He has be pinned against the wall.
I kissed back and smiled.
I loved this affection. It felt weird because it wasn't the same as Tyler but right now that didn't matter.
(quick a/n I won't torture you so ill fast forward past this one part b/c y'all probably already upset 😂)
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He pressed our noses to together as we both breathed heavily. He rolled off of me and I stared at the ceiling as my breath began to calm down.
"Wow...you're still just as great," he muttered.
I simply nodded thinking of the memories of the past hour or so.
It felt so wrong.
How did I even end up here? In bed with my ex that I swore I never wanted anything to do with anymore.
All because Tyler blew me off.
Wow.
