He's just a fantasy, You don't go out with a Fantasy ( Joshaya )

Chapter Eighteen

Maya was still whimpering to herself as she was trying to process the nightmare she just woke up too.  Why would Josh do this to us? How long has this been going on? Was this all just a game to him? All these thoughts made her sick to her stomach. Her heart was aching at the thought of Josh being with another girl this entire time. She caught herself crying all over again, she pulled her knees to her stomach and gently rocked herself hoping to get her breathing under control again. Suddenly she heard knocking at the door,

"Maya?" she heard Josh on the other side. She shook her head all she wanted to do was disappear but how could she? There was no escaping the inevitable, she was still on the floor she wanted to let him in but she was motionless. Maya was staring off into space as Josh kept knocking and shouting her name but she was still at a blank. The doorknob was rattling now and she could hear his voice become panicky. 

"Maya open up! I'll knock the door down if you don't!" Maya was still on the floor; her face covered with tear stains she got up slowing and unlocked the door moving back to her bed. Josh came in and saw her looking distraught. 

"Babe what's wrong?" he asked coming closer but Maya put a finger to her mouth shushing him, and put out her other hand gesturing to back away. Josh was worried now but he backed up slowly and sat at the edge of the bed giving her space.

"Maya what's going on?" he asked her again.

"Like you don't know" she said coldly.

Josh raised his brow at her, "No..I don't know so could you tell me maybe with less attitude?"

Maya scoffed, "Sure." she got up from her seat and walked to to the other side of the room preparing herself with what was about to happen. She turned around and looked at the boy she thought she loved.

"Do you think I'm pathetic Josh? Do you think I'm an easy person to hurt since I've had a crush on you for so long? You think this is a game? That I was never good enough for you?" she choked on the last words. 

"Maya why are you saying these things?" Josh got up and went to her side laying his hand on her cheek, "Maya I love y-" She brushed his hand away "Save it Josh" she said scrambling for her phone that was still on the floor. She grabbed it and unlocked her phone placing in right in front of his face, "You love me like you love her?" she questioned him referring to the girl in the pictures. 

She didn't like fighting with Josh but she sure as hell wasn't about to show him any weakness. Josh grabbed her phone out of her hand and scrolled through the few pictures she had received. He shook his head,

"No no no where did you get those? What is this?" he asked in disbelief.

"Say it" Maya demanded coming closer to him "Say her name"

Josh sighed, "Maya it's not-"

"Say her damn name"  Maya's voice was trembling.

Josh walked over to the bed and put his head in his hand, he rubbed his eyes not believing what was happening. He looked up at Maya her eyes were glistening,

"Isabella" he mumbled quietly.

"Exactly. Isabella. If you still loved her Josh you could have said so! Instead of making me believe what we had was real. You didn't need to play this cruel game with me" Maya's mood had switched to anger. "I thought we loved each other-" Josh cut her off,

"Maya stop! I don't understand who sent those pictures to you, let alone the fact I don't even remember being with Isabella in France I-"

Maya's eyes widen, "France?! You were with her in France? While I was back in New York crying over how much I missed you? Crying because of how much my heart hurt without you?" she placed her hand over her mouth preventing her from hyperventilating. She took a deep breath before she continued speaking again,

 "Was this the plan the entire time? For you two to get away and laugh at poor little Maya? Well congratulations you did it. You succeeded." She took a seat on the edge facing away from Josh mortified at how this was unfolding.

Josh got up and kneeled beside her, "Maya nothing of this is how it seems the night I encountered Isabella was at the club on the first day of the trip, we exchanged nasty comments to each other because I confessed that I loved you the entire time she and I were together. This has to be her evil ploy against us, it has to be" he said moving her hair away from her face.

"Josh that doesn't explain why she was in bed with you" she paused knowing what she was about to ask would hurt, "did you guys do anything?" she looked at him knowing what she was hinting at.

"I-I" all he did was stutter, "I don't remember that night, I was drunk I just" he sighed knowing nothing he could say would make her feel better.

Maya wiped her tears away, "That's all I need to hear" she got up and grabbed her bag; she began to pack her things. Josh rushed to her side undoing her bag, "Maya no-"

"I can't be here" she sniffled putting her stuff back into her bag Josh grabbed both of her hands, "Maya look at me please" but she couldn't. He let go of her hands, and cupped his hands around her face placing his forehead against her, " I love you" he whispered, "don't go" his voice was unsteady, she could his see eyes were watery.

"You were with someone else Josh" it killed her to say those words. "I need to get away." She released herself from his grip and zipped up her bag. She let out a deep breath and walked to the door. She was about to go, but she looked down at her hand noticing she was still wearing her ring. She hesitated at first, but she turned back and walked over to Josh, she gently removed the ring and gave it to him at the palm of his hand and closed it shut to a tight fist. "Don't look for me, I need time" she whispered to him; and with that she closed the door shut on the boy she thought she knew. 

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