Keep Your Enemies Closer

I miss her so much

CHANDLER'S PoV:

I thanked aunt Bella and she ruffled my hair after placing the plate in front of me.
"You never look at me and ruffle my hair as passionate as you do to him, mom." I turned my gaze towards Archer, who was leaning against the frame of the kitchen door. I rolled my eyes and started eating her delicious food.

"Stop being such a brat and get over here. I need to be on my way in a few. Don't make me late." She said and Archer strode towards me and settled down next to me on the table. I chuckled when he shot me a glare.

"What can I say? I'm a ladies' man." I joked and he snorted.
"Yes you are, you handsome young man." Aunt Bella placed the plate in front of Archer and pinched my cheek in a loving way, which made me chuckle again. She kissed my cheek after.

"But now-" She kissed Archer's cheek too and straightened her back again.
"I need to go. I love both of you and lock the door after me. And-" She glared at Archer and I held back a smirk.

"I don't want to hear the neighbors tell me how loud your party was." Archer's face fell.
"What?" He asked and Aunt Bella laughed.
"You think I don't know what's going on when I'm not here? This is not a movie, honey." She said and Archer gulped.

"Don't pull my little baby boy into your evil plans. Leave him out of it and be responsible." She told him in a stern tone and Archer rolled his eyes.
"Sometimes I really think you love him more than me." Archer scoffed.

"I love you both equally as much." She winked at me, which made me grin widely. She kissed our cheeks again and then left.

I'm so glad to have aunt Bella. All the love that my mother couldn't give me, I get from her. And I hope that she knows how much she means to me. She's gone through a lot just to have me as her nephew. When I was a toddler and she saw my bruises, she even wanted to get full custody of me. But of course my father didn't allow that.

She was my mom's stepsister and that didn't even make her my real relative, since we weren't blood related. And that's another reason why she didn't win that trial years ago. But she was more than just a relative for me now. And Archer was more like my brother. Annoying, but I had to love him.

"So, how is it going with that girl you been talking about? Did you bang her yet?" I heard Archer ask and stopped chewing for a second, before clenching my jaw.
"No, I didn't and we sort of stopped talking two weeks ago." It has been almost two weeks. Almost two bloody weeks that I haven't seen her.

"Oh, that's a shame. But you broke up in a good way, though. Right?" He had a weird look on his face and I rolled my eyes.
"We didn't break up, since we weren't in a relationship." I told him and it was his turn to roll his eyes.

"Yeah, whatever. But if you'd see her on the streets, you'd greet her, right?" I thought about his question, before snorting sarcastically.
"If I wanted to get my dick cut off, yeah." It was true. There was a reason I avoided her street at all costs. I remember the day we 'broke up' like it was just yesterday ago.

"You really want that?" Her voice was shaky and her tone was quiet. I couldn't look at her, because that would show her how exactly I felt. I didn't want it off, but she was right. I shouldn't use her as my personal kissing doll. I just didn't understand why I enjoyed kissing her so much at that time.

And then I thought about it and the moment I did, I chickened out. I liked her. More than I thought I would. I couldn't bring myself to tell her about my feelings. They weren't supposed to be there. 

"Chandler?" She asked. I knew I had to make up a lie, so she would leave and don't text me the next day. She was mad and I knew she didn't mean to call it off. But it made me realize that she deserves so much more. And I was only holding her up and hurting her. I didn't want that.

"You can go." I still haven't looked at her. I just unlocked the doors.
"Listen, maybe we should-"
"For fuck's sake, Allie. Leave!" I growled and finally looked at her. I saw her flinch and a second later she glared at me.

"Fine. I will, but don't come crawling back tomorrow!" She yelled.
"I won't, trust me. I probably found someone else to satisfy me by that time anyways." She scoffed at my answer and took her things from the backseats. She left without saying another word. This was the worst I've ever felt. I knew it was over after that. She was mad and I was too afraid to man up and tell her everything.

And I would do everything now to just be with her, hear her say my name and run her hands through my hair. I miss her so much, it hurt. At evenings I would stay in bed and think about how much of a wuss I really am. All I wanted to do was drive to her and tell her how much she meant to me. That I needed her and worshiped her so much.

"Earth to Chandler?" I snapped my gaze towards Archer and shook my head to get rid of my thoughts. What was he saying?
"What?" I asked. I was spacing out again. Just like when I had lessons. I lost focus and all I could think about was her, lately.

"I asked what happened if I threw a party. Let's say tonight. And she would be there? I'm just asking because I'm curious." He said and I nodded slowly, before thinking about it.
"I would leave." I said. No way was I going to risk seeing her. I would give in the moment she came into view.

"Where to?" He asked and I ran a hand through my hair. Good question. My dad was still at the mansion and I had no idea where else to go.
"Why are you even asking that? It's irrelevant." I answered and he shrugged, not really looking into my eyes.

"You're right."