It's Complicated(Miles)

Perfect...Almost

I have been planning my date with Alya for so long, it is going to be perfect. I mean it has to be, this isn't just anyone, it's Alya. When the bell rings I rush out, pick up a few things for the date, grab a guitar, and head out to the field. Nothing can go wrong. As Alya begins walking over I start singing, ( Wise men say, Only fools rush in, But I can't help falling in love with you Shall I stay?Would it be a sin If I can't help falling in love with you?) She looks up and smiles, than she joins in for the rest of the song (Like a river flows, Surely to the sea, Darling, so it goes, Some things are meant to be, Take my hand,Take my whole life, too, For I can't help falling in love with you) We both look up and laugh, I put down my guitar for a second and pick up the picnic basket I brought. I take out two salads, and two ha sandwiches. Than I take out two glasses and pour grape juice into mine, than I ask Alya, "would you like anything to drink?" She laughs and says, "of course Mr. Lennox." I pour grape juice into her glass, and when I look up she begins to lean in. I close my eyes and wait for the sparks. Suddenly, my phone rings, Alya and I jumped, and I spilled my drink onto her white blouse. I felt myself blush and just said sorry, than walked away to take the call.

*I do not understand, everything was so magical. Than, Miles got a phone call, I understand it could be important so he had to answer it, but, is it selfish that I expected him to ignore it? On top that, this was my favorite white blouse, but it will get better, it has to, Miles and I are meant to be together, right?* ~Alya

*I know I messed up a lot, but my mom told me to always pick up my phone in case it's anything about, you know my disease. I guess I will find out if anything is wrong after picking it up. I just hope Alya understands, I can't blow my shot this time.* ~Miles

I pick up the phone and keep on glancing over at Alya, I am such an idiot, I messed up everything. I hear my mom saying that they got me a kidney donor, and after that everything is fuzzy. I can see it, a life where I don't have to worry about being sick, a life where I can be Alya's perfect boyfriend. I could even fully pursue music. However, I also see a life, where my body rejects the kidney, and well... than nothing, everything ends, no more Alya, no more Keaton, just hospital, and eventually...no that could never happen. I should be happy, I say goodbye to my mom, than walk over to Alya. "Are you ok?" she asks, sounding concerned. "Yea, my mom said they found me a kidney donor." I look emotionless, but I see a smile form on Alya's face, "that's amazing Miles." Than she hugs me, I squeeze her tightly, partially because I just need someone. "When is the surgery?" she asks, "Tomorrow." I reply. She just looks blankly at me, "Don't worry Miles you will be fine, nothing can go wrong." I just smile, but I know, the worst that can go wrong is my body rejects the kidney and than well, I could...die

* I am so scared for Miles, I have never been friends with someone who was this sick before. What if something goes wrong, what if he can't come back to Keaton. I know I have to pretend to be strong though for Miles* ~Alya

* I know it is dumb to worry, and I know I won't die, that is only in extreme cases. I should be happy, I know I am incredibly lucky. I just wish I was never sick in the first place. I know nothing can go wrong with my family and Alya by my side, it's dumb to worry, nothing can go wrong, right?* Miles

Alya and I finish up our date by going back and forth playing guitar riffs. I needed to not think about the transplant, and Alya understood that. Every second I am taking in the moment, I just want to remember this moment with Alya forever. We are laughing so hard our stomachs hurt. We even played a dumb rhyming game for lyrics, it did  not work very well. When it is almost time to leave Alya helps me clean up our picnic, as we are picking up the picnic blanket, our hands touch. We look up, smile, and than for one magical moment, we kiss. We look up and smile, and than stumble back laughing. These are the moments that count, and I am not planning on wasting it. 

* Being with Alya makes me forget I am sick and I love it, we bring out the best and worst in each other and sometimes that's all you need* ~ Miles

* I want to ask Miles about how he is feeling but I know I can't, sometimes you have to give the people you care about space, and let them talk to you when they are ready. I will give Miles all the time n the world, because  I like him* ~ Alya