The Weird and The Wonderful | Malec

Chapter 14

Magnus's POV:

For the past week I had been going to the hospital to visit Alec even though it was most likely pointless. And I was going again.

I arrived at the hospital and did what I did everyday. I sat by his side, held his hand and spoke to him.

Alec's POV:

Where am I? What's happened? The last thing I could remember was picking up the suits. Then I blacked out and images of Magnus flashed through my mind. Images of him smiling and laughing. Images of him through the years- our first date, first kiss, when he showed up at my door with the promise rings, when he proposed- all flashed through my mind.

But now? Now it was dark, it was lonely. It was nothingness.

"Alexander," I heard all of a sudden, it was Magnus. How can this be? He wasn't there, but I could hear him so clearly. "I'm here...yet again. The apartment, it's so- so quiet without you. Without you cooking, without you laughing, without you...there." There was a moment of silence in which all I wanted to do was scream, let him know that I was here. But as much as I strained I couldn't get out one word.
"Anyway, everyone misses you, Izzy, your mum, dad and Max...even Chairman Meow." There was a pause in which Magnus giggled. But it wasn't out of happiness or out of comedic gesture. It was out of resentment.
It was full of pain.
"Alexander, I love you. And you will always be my blue eyed boy. No matter what. Don't give up on yourself, because I know I'm definitely not giving up on you."
What did he mean by 'don't give up on yourself'? Where was I? Why couldn't I see him? Oh how I to see him. I missed him so much. Those amber eyes, that hair that fell so perfectly onto his face, and those lips, oh how I missed his kiss.
"I've delayed the wedding for 10 months. That gives you enough time to wake up, recover and figure out if you still want this- to marry me, I mean. After everything you've been through, you might've figured out that I wasn't right for you." What was he talking about? Of course I'd still want to marry him. He was the love of my life, those don't come round every day. I just wanted to get up and hug him, tell him that it would all be alright. And, yet again, as much as I tried, I couldn't. It was so frustrating. I loved this man and yet I couldn't do anything to help him.

I heard weeping coming from Magnus and it made me feel even worse. Why? Why did it have to be like this? Why was life so confusing?

It was silent. But I knew Magnus was still there because of the occasional tap of his shoes, which I knew so well.

He was there all night, by my side. In the morning he finally said something.
"Morning my beautiful man. I have to go Alec. I need to work. Don't forget that I love you and, as I've already said, don't give up. I believe in you." And from the noise that came next I could tell that he kissed me. I couldn't feel it but wanted so badly to be able to kiss him back.

Magnus's POV:

I got into the apartment as Chairman started to meow at me. I gave him milk to shut him up and keep him distracted. I wanted to be alone so I took my jacket off and dropped it to the floor. I went straight to bed, not even thinking about work. I laid on my side of the bed, stretched my arm out to Alec's side, to emptiness. A tear drop collided with the soft pillow beneath my head, it wasn't enough comfort. I took Alec's pillow and brought it to my face, smelling it, tightening my grip. It reminded me of him and made more and more tears collide with the pillow. Phone calls came from my workplace, I ignored them all.

I laid on my side with the pillow between my arms. Close to me was the lingering scent of Alec.