TINDER❥ || Scömìche

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I ran out of Starbucks, stormed by the guests who were staring at me wondering.
I didn't care and ran down the streets until I was out of breath and had to continue walking slowly.
My head was probably red and I was furious.
This day started off super shitty.
It began fantastic but Kirstin ruined it. Everything. Scott's and I's moment of proximity.
I felt so sorry for Scott.
He must have felt so bad. Being completely ignored.
But it was all my fault! I should have said something to make Kirstie go away. No wonder he left. He thought I wasn't interested in him and probably didn't understand that I didn't say anything to my friend when she began eating his cake and suggested to spend the day with her.
I decided to text Scott.
I had to.

  me: hey, I wanted to apologize for earlier! You must have felt super uncomfortable and it was all my fault! So stupid of me to not say anything, please don't be that mad at me, I really wanted to spend the forenoon with you!

I clicked on send and decided to drink a hot coffee to wake up even more.
For the next hour I spend the time with watching Youtube until my phone buzzed.
Scott.
I immediately clicked on his answer.

  Scott: at least you apologize

What? Why did he write that? Why didn't he write more? I got nervous and began sweating. He was angry. And it's all my fault.
What should I do now?
I burried my face in my hands.
I didn't wanna loose him.
After 10 more minutes of sobbing I received an other message.

  Scott: I'm sorry, Mitch, I was to harsh! My pride was to big and I was a little bit ... offended. I thought you would rather hang out with her than with me but eventually it isn't your fault, it's Kirstie's! I know she's your best friend but that was super rude and disrespectful!

I was confused at first but soon got happy again.
Like, omg, does that mean he forgave me?
I sightly smiled.

  me: so you aren't mad at me?

  Scott: No! I could never be!

  me: thank you!

He went offline.
Now it's Kirstin's turn. I really need to text her.

  me: Kirstie, you there?

It took 2 minutes until she saw the message and answered.

  Kirstie: Yes, why tf did you leave and shouted at me?!

  me: I didn't mean to shout but I was so damn angry! You ignored Scott completely, he was so uncomfortable and I was afraid he would be cross with me! I just don't know why you keep being rude to him!

  Kirstie: you know exactly why, I already told you and it wasn't my fault that he left!

  me: listen, Kirst, I noticed that we currently argue way more often than usual and I really don't want to! You are my best friend and I love you. I accept your opinion and understand that you want to help me but for me it ruins a lot. Xo

  Kirstie: See? It's all his fault! We argue more often because of him! But I admit it was kinda rude of me, can you forgive me? Ily

  me: of course I can! See you sometimes, Kirst!

I went offline.
Everything is okay again.
What wasn't ok was that I was craving Scott. His short but super comfortable and save hugs and his hand spooning mine.
I didn't want our breakfast to end like this and actually wanted to spend the rest of the day or at least the forenoon and lunchtime with him.
But it definitely would be to clingy if I asked him to meet now.
Yet who's turn is it to ask for the next meeting?
If there's one.
If it's my turn I will sure wait one day although I already miss him and didn't want to sit alone in my small, boring flat.

After thinking I decided to spend the rest of the day in the bathroom.
I created different looks with makeup and took a lot of selfies.
They all looked good and I caught myself wanting to put makeup on other people too.
Maybe I can ask Nicole if I can practice on her?

Hours passed by and the rest of the day was normal.
But beautiful.