Risk

9

Mika

It's been four days since our "date night." Hindi kami masyadong nag-usap since then kahit na sa iisang kama lang kami natutulog every night.

It just seems—I don't know—weird?

Things are weird and I know hindi lang ako yung nakakaramdam non.

The night had started out smoothly enough. Sobrang kinulit lang ako ni Jessey all night, ginawa nya kong personalized Barbie doll nya. And then when Kiefer showed up, the way he naturally told me I look beautiful actually made me feel beautiful.

Tapos nung nasa restaurant na kami. The way he told the waitress I am his wife—the way he practically caressed the words sent chills through my spine and I can't help but just stare at him. I'm sure he thought there's something wrong with me, but at that moment I just didn't care.

I just want to sit there and look at him forever.

Then we went to the concert and nakita namin si Therese and Rex.

To say I was shocked that they were together was the understatement of the century. Hindi talaga ako makapaniwala that those two had actually got married and started a life together.

Sila kasi talaga nung college kami—though we're ahead of them—lagi silang on and off, laging nag-aaway and wala atang month na hindi sila pwedeng hindi nagbe-break.

I just can't believe that even they survived everything and seemed so genuinely and unbelievably happy.

Kiefer and I, on the other hand, had pretty much shattered.

We had been so in love, so absolutely perfect together and everyone saw it—including me.

But seeing Therese and Rex so in love and happy made me realize how shitty things really had turned out for us.

And now here we are, four days later, just the six of us driving down to the place where everything started. Where I found my life and my love and a place that I can call my home.

Jessey and Kim had apparently been planning a trip back to Cainta since the day everyone arrived at Anvaya Cove. It seems like the perfect weekend because Papa Bong and Mama Mozzy will finally have their alone time together. Then yung parents ko might visit us there or luluwas na lang din kami ng Manila.

Honestly speaking, kung mahirap magsinungaling sa mga kaibigan namin, mas nahihirapan akong magsinungaling sa magulang ko about samin ni Kiefer.

It's like, nase-sense nila na may mali, na may problema kami. Pero wala na lang silang sinasabi.

Hindi ko alam if this time may mapansin pa din sila, pero if meron hindi ko alam kung paano ko iha-handle yon.

I know they would never flat out ask about anything, my parents are not that type of persons. But just the fact that they might know is enough to put me on edge.

Kaya ito, nasa byahe pa lang kami sobrang kinakabahan na ko, hindi na ko mapakali.

Alam ko someone is calling my name as I gazed absentmindedly out of the car window. The voice keeps on fading in and out.

"Mika!" Billie and Jessey shouted at the same time.

I jumped a little in my seat and looked at the both of them.

We're in the APV na pinahiram muna samin nila Papa Bong para may enough seats sa aming anim and sa gamit namin. Thirdy is the one driving with Billie in the passenger seat while Jessey and Kim are in the center seats. Kiefer and I got the section dito sa likod.