Risk

12

Kiefer

Extraordinary.

That is the only way to describe my birthday. And it's all because of Mika.

I was so touched that she had even gotten me a gift for my birthday, but that is not the extraordinary part.

It was what she had gotten me.

It was perfect and I have never been more inspired to write a song in my entire life. She inspires me. She always inspires me. She is my muse and I am not sure if she even knows that.

And I can't forget that kiss. My lips still tingles when I think about it.

Gusto kong pasalamatan lahat ng tao na nag-pressure kay Mika to kiss me because that was one of the best moments of my life. At that moment everything felt right. It's as if we're still really together, happily married, sharing a passionate kiss in front of our families and friends.

But once we got into bed that night and lay on our separate sides with the invisible wall up between us, it slowly sinks in that none of it was real... no matter how much I desperately want it to be.

I want my happily ever after with Mika, but how could I do that when we never truly talk our problems out?

Plano ko na talaga syang kausapin kahapon, but then my family had to go and throw me a damn surprise party.

Ang worst part pa, it made me to reconsider things.

Mika... Mika seems to finally be happy and I don't want to take that away from her so soon.

I know na kapag nag-usap kami, it will only create tension—it's inevitable.

Maybe I can just enjoy my time with her a little while longer... kahit hindi totoo, kahit napipilitan lang sya.

I mean, she may be pretending but I sure as hell I am not anymore and I will take what I can get for as long as I can get it... and when the time comes, I will finally sit with her and The Event will take place.

Pero ngayon I'd enjoy this muna.

I am lazily lying on our bed, staring out the large window that leads to the balcony while Mika is breathing evenly beside me.

I heard my phone rings on the night stand beside my bed and I quickly grabbed it and quietly got out of bed. Lumabas ako sa may balcony and sinara ko dahan-dahan yung pinto sa likod ko.

I looked at the caller i.d. and my heart immediately dropped.

It's Alexander. Our divorce lawyer.

I took a deep breath and answered. "Hello?"