Bad Reputation; Shawn Mendes

Intro

Dedicated to my best friend
and twin Madison (-thrashershawn)
For being the reason I stopped procrastinating and finally got this book done.
Love you bitch x
- S

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Main Characters

Jessica Andrea as America Adams

Shawn Mendes as Himself

Everyone else that pops up as themselves

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America Adams, the girl who's been bullied as a kid and rumors about her spread like a wild fire. She tried to stop them but nothing worked...so why not go along with them and have the bad reputation?

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America Adams.

What's a reputation? A reputation is a label, something people know you by. There are people who strive to have a good one. Where people know they're kind hearted or caring. Is there only good reputations?

No, there is good and bad but sometimes the good out weigh the bad. In my case? I have it bad. Not on purpose either, more like I had no choice. I try so hard to change it or get people to realize I'm not bad. But as I got older I realize there wasn't a point.

People won't care what you say or do. As soon as you have a label it won't change. They'll always see you as either good or bad. How mine got started? Well that's a crazy story, a story that started since I was 12.

First it was my parents divorce because my dad was a drunk and my mom didn't want to stick around. She left me with him, not only did she not want him but she didn't want me either. It hurt I mean I was only 12 and my mom left me.

People made fun of me, teasing me about not having my mom. Telling me how my dad was going to die from alcohol poisoning before I graduate high school. It hurt, every word they said. I tried to ignore it, tried to tell them it wasn't true but people don't listen.

Nobody listens, I learned to ignore it later as time went on. Then I was in high school and things got worse. I was at a party freshman year, a party that my friend invited me to.

Like any regular high school party there were upperclassmen and alcohol. Well there was the cute upperclassmen that took a whole lot of interest in me. Me being young and naive thought this douche bag really liked me. But I should've figured that after he kept handing me drinks and drinking some himself that he was drunk.

But I didn't and then we started dancing, then he started to kiss me. I kissed back tasting the alcohol on his lips. It got really heated really fast he said he wanted to continue in private. I knew not to go but I was a little drunk so my common sense was gone.

We ended up going into a room and had a hot make up session. He started to get handsy and I wanted this to stop. He didn't though he kept touching me, not in a dangerous way. But I was uncomfortable and kept trying to remove his hands.

I ended up kneeing him in the balls which made him double over. He grunted and got super angry, he told me I'd regret it but didn't really know what he meant. At least not until I got back to school the following week.

When I walked in to school everyone was staring and everyone was whispering. I felt very subconscious and didn't really like the spot light. Then I got to my locker and found the word 'Whore' written on it. A bunch of people started laughing and I remember running to the bathroom crying.

I got bullied and called a whore and slur over rumors. The upperclassmen had spread rumors that I had sex with him. And not once but more than once and that I did other things. More and more rumors got spread and I cried for the longest.

But then something clicked inside, I wasn't going to cry anymore. It was pointless, crying wasn't going to help. I wasn't going to stop these rumors so instead I played along. I became a whole different person, I cut my hair and dyed it. I went to parties and drank and had sex with guys.

I already had rumors about me, I wasn't the little freshman that I was at the beginning of that year. I am a whole new person, a person who doesn't care what people think anymore. I am now a Senior in High school and a walking sin. Girls hate me and guys only want one thing from me. They don't want to get to know me and see me for me, they see me as a prize they wish to conquer.

And I could careless. I don't care what anyone thinks. They could think I'm a whore or slut or a bitch.

I am just America Adams, the girl with a Bad Reputation.

Authors Note//
I might start this when illuminate💡comes out but if people really want me to start it I will.
Let me know what you think of it so far based on this!
Until Next Time Peace Lovelies💚🤘🏼
**yes I did change who I perceive as America