Bad Reputation; Shawn Mendes

33. Aftermath

"Then the storm passed."

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America

I hated hospitals. I've already said this before but it remains the same. What I hated even more was the fact that I was here because of the same person. I was sitting in a chair waiting and waiting for someone to tell me something. This whole night was a blur and chaotic at the same time.

So many things were running through my head. Starting from the minute Shawn showed up at my house to his falling to the floor. I remembered when he was asking me about us he kept pinching the bridge of his nose. He looked like he had a big headache and I should've asked him what was wrong.

I should've had him sit down or something but I didn't. Instead I was scared of telling him the truth. I was worried about him hating me or me losing him. And well maybe that second part will happen.

I sat next to the guys as we waited in the waiting room. I couldn't help but replay everything he said. How sad he looked when he asked me why I didn't tell him. That if I seen him as broken, that I didn't want to deal with him because he lost his memory. Little did he know I was the broken one.

I didn't know how to properly think or act without realizing I'm hurting people who care for me. I've been so used to others pushing me away or ignoring me. I've just gotten used to saving myself, guarding myself that it was the first thing I did when he woke up with no memories of who I was.

I was pulled out of my thoughts when Karen walked out of the room. We all looked at her and she waved at us to go over. We all got up and walked into the room, the doctor was in there and Shawn laid in the bed. His eyes were closed and he looked a little pale. I didn't want to see him like that so I focused on the doctor as he started to speak.

"So what exactly happened to Shawn was something found somewhat uncommon in those who've lost their memories." The doctor told us.

"What do you mean somewhat uncommon?" Ian asked.

"Well normally those who lose their memories just gain them back like waking up from a dream or not at all. But we do get those who tend to have a little bleeding. We did a scan and the bleeding stopped, a surgery was not needed. We just went through his nose to make sure it was what we saw on the scan." He proceeded to tell us.

"So does that mean he's okay?" Karen asked as she sat down next to her son's bed.

The doctor nodded his head which made me feel so much relief, "He should be waking up anytime soon. The bleeding was caused by stress and pressure. It was most likely that he was putting his brain in immense pressure for something. This happens to those few patients who feel stressed to remember something they've forgotten. His brain isn't all that healed from the procedure last time so he put a lot of work on a fragile area."

As soon as I felt relieved I felt guilty. He could have been trying hard to remember us. To remember the truth and it was all my fault because I should have told him the truth from the beginning.

Just then Karen gasped and Shawn was moving. His eyes weren't open though but I could see him squeeze his moms happen.

"Mmm my head hurts." He mumbled.

It caused everyone in the room to laugh. I seen a smile form on his face which made my eyes water. He was okay. He was already smiling and that made me happy. He finally opened his eyes and looked at him mom. She gave him a hug in which he weakly returned.

When she sat down he looked around the room and finally his eyes landed on mine. I remembered the last time that happened and how he had no clue who I was.

"Don't cry Mer it was just a little nose bleed, I'll be able to take you out on that date I promised in no time, huh doc." He joked before he looked over at the doctor.

My heart stopped when he said that. Karen looked at me confused and so did the guys.

"Date?" Brian asked confused.

Shawn looked back at Brian and had a questioning look, "What about it?"

"Shawn do you remember what we last talked about?" I asked him.

He looked at everyone confused before nodding, "Yeah I was at your house and it was storming."

"Shawn that day we were supposed to go on that date you got into a car crash." I told him.

The doctor walked over to Shawn and checked his vitals, "Shawn do you remember the last few months?"

Shawn nodded, "Yeah it's almost Halloween."

Karen had the biggest smile, "And you know who America is?"

He looked at his mom and laughed, "Yes mom we've been dating for a month. I remember the car crash I was on my way to pick her up. I remember the last few months but before the nose bleed I don't remember the rest of the day."

"I remember America telling me my nose was bleeding but I forgot how I got to your house or why I was there." Shawn proceeded to tell us.

"Sometimes with the patients like Shawn who get nose bleeds after something like brain trauma there is that small percent that their memories will come back. Shawn happened to be a lucky one. It's also common not to remember everything quite yet. So his memory being a little blurry about the rest of the day is common and not so concerning." The doctor informed us.

"Why are you crying Mer?" He asked me as he patted the side of his bed.

I laughed as I wiped my tears away, "No reason just really happy you're okay is all."

I walked over to him and sat next to him on the bed.

"Um I'm gonna call your father to bring your sister back. Come on boys I'm sure you're hungry." Karen said.

They all left the room and closed the door so it was just Shawn and I. He held my hand in his and gave me a weak smile because I'm sure his head still hurt.

"I didn't want to tell everyone I knew why I was at your house before the nose bleed." Shawn told me.

My stomach filled with nervousness, "Shawn I'm sorry I just didn't-"

He shook his head, "You don't have to explain to me America. No memory me didn't know your reasons, but now that I have my memory I understand. Just know that no memory me was already falling in love with you because even though I didn't remember you my feelings for you didn't go anywhere."

Another tear slipped down my face, he let go of my hand to wipe it away.

"I was so scared of losing you again." I told him.

He smiled, "You're not going to lose anyone anymore America."

I let go of his other hand and hugged him. He wrapped his arms around me and we just held each other. There wasn't any other place I would've wanted to be in that moment.

Shawn was my place.

Authors Note//
This book is FINALLY coming to an end.
I'm sad but so happy to be ending it, mostly because it has been up on my account for so long unfinished.
Also I'm not a doctor or smart so don't come at me for what was said in the chapter Hahaha
Let me know what you think
Until Next Time Peace Lovelies✌🏼💚