I Want You To Want Me

chapter 1: painful memories

~ flashback~

Larissa was staring at her phone screen, staring and waiting, waiting 5 painfully long minutes for a reply. A reply from him. She was so infatuated, she knew she was acting like an obsessed girl.
She loved him, she was sweet, cute, too nice and did not have a mean bone in her body. He was confident, self aware, handsome and blunt.  Everyday she thought about him, everyday she talked about him ,and whenever she spoke to him she felt so nervous and faint.
Her phone beeped, it was a text, a text from him. Her heart skipped a beat. Her hands got sweaty and she felt so nervous. "Hey beautiful" was the reply. "I missed you my princess", he was such a flirt. Her face turned red, " I missed you too Ambrose, my naughty lover boy ", but she was an even bigger flirt. She hit send.

The first time Larissa saw Ambrose she was smitten. She found him rather peculiar. He was a nerd but didn't look like one. He sure as hell didn't wear glasses and freak out each time a girl looked at him. To say he was confident was the biggest understatement of the year, he was crazy confident and so charming.
He had the sexiest smirk and his dimples...his dimples were to die for.
 
" Wanna come over to my place?  I'm lonely". He was tempting her because he knew she had a huge soft spot for him. "You know I can't Ambrose, I'm scared" she was so tempted, but she knew her parents would never allow. " I thought you cared. Don't you baby girl? " he was baiting her. " I can't Ambrose... I just can't " she was trying so hard to control her carnal desires. "Okay... " he had decided to let it go. "Are you mad?". He didn't reply, she sent three more texts but he didn't dare say a word to her. She started panicking. Love... sometimes it makes us do and think the craziest of things. She wanted to impress him so badly because she was so infatuated. " Alright, fine I'll think of something " she eventually gave in. Ambrose smiled a sinister smile. She had taken the bait.

~end of flashback ~

"Earth to Issa, hellllloooo" Chloe could see that Larissa was clearly distracted by something. "Are you okay, you've been staring at that guy for a really long time now. You hitting on him?" Chloe asked with enthusiasm. Larissa shook her head violently, like someone who couldn't bear the thought of being with the guy Chloe was talking about. "No" she said eventually, "he reminds me of someone from my past that's all". Chloe sighed, she had been trying in vain to get Larissa to ' loosen up'.

It had been 10yrs since 'it' happened, 'it' being the incident that left Larissa with nothing except sadness, grief, guilt and regret. She had pushed the memories at the back of her head, way back. Thinking about it made her heart ache, literally. It was her fault, she knew it was and she had never truly forgiven herself for it. But she wasn't the only one involved yet she was the only one who suffered. The only who remembered every sickening detail, the one who paid the price. Life definitely isn't fair she thought to herself.