Disguise Inlove With You Pare (COMPLETED)

XXII. Feelings

I got this feelings for you
And I can't help myself no more
Can't fight this feelings for you
No, I can't help myself no more

Alex

Ilang linggo na din akong di umuuwi sa dorm. Sa frat house ako lagi tumutuloy. I just don't know what else to do. Ever since nung gabing yun sa hotel, di na nawala yung weird na pakiramdam ko kay Blue. At first, I blamed the alcohol for it pero nung nagising ako face to face with him, I felt it again.

That weird feeling when your heart beats so fast because of the presence of one person. In my case, it's Blue.

I tried to act normal around him nang makabalik kami sa University, but the feeling Im feeling is just getting stronger. I always find myself staring at him while he's sleeping, and all of a sudden I will feel that weird feeling again. I tried to control that feeling but, it's just too strong and stubborn. I tried not talking to him, but I found myself thinking about him all day. And so, I started buying foods for him. I convinced myself that theres nothing wrong with it, that Im just buying food for my friend and Im just showing my concern for him. But when he held my shoulders and thanked me, I felt as if a thousand bolts of energy raced up to my body. That's when I knew that I needed to stay away from him.

I just can't simply feel that way towards Blue, because he's a fucking male. An opposite of what I should be feeling this things with.

I faced the girl na kasama ko sa cafe.

"What do you want?" Tanong ko sakanya habang inusog yung menu sakanya

Nagpacute siya sakin. "You?"

"Im just gonna order coffee, just go and choose so that I can order already." Sabi ko sakanya ng hindi pinapakita yung pagkairita.

Ang arte kasi niya. Panay pacute.

Hinawakan niya yung kamay ko. "No, I mean I want you." Halos pabulong na sabi niya

Agad ko din naman tinanggal yung kamay ko sa kamay niya at saka tumayo.

"Alright, Im going to order for you."

Pumunta ako sa counter para umorder.

"Plain black cofee, honey glazed salad and green tea." Bigla akong natigilan sa inorder ko, green tea is the favorite drink of Blue. And that's what Ive been giving him nung dinadalan ko siya ng pagkain last last week. Without further thinking, I changed my order quickly

"Oh, um please change the green tea into mocha latte."

"Alright sir, anything else?"

Umiling ako.

"Okay sir, serve nalang po." Sabi sakin ng cashier kaya bumalik na ako sa table namin

Nagulat naman ako ng biglang makisalo si Tyler at Lee samin.

"Helloooo bro long time no bond, tara somewhere." Bati ni Tyler

I frowned at him. "Can't you see Im with someone?"

"Oh, hi. What's her name?" Tanong ni Tyler sakin

I sighed. Sobrang kulit talaga nito, minsan iniisip ko kung pano ko to naging kaibigan eh.

"I dont know. Ask her." Walang emosyong sagot ko

Honestly, hindi ko talaga alam yung pangalan ng babaeng kasama ko. Nagrandom call lang ako sa mga number na nagtetext sakin. Actually nakailang labas na ako with different random girls simula ng mafigure ko out ko yung weird feelings ko for Blue. I just can't have a thing for him, I figured that I need to be atracted to females again.