A World Behind Walls (Tokio Hotel Story)

Chapter 12

Chapter 12

    The next morning I woke up without Tom, there was a note on his pillow and it crunched under my hand when I touched it. The paper was a smokie yellow color, like one how those old papers look. And the wrighting was in perfect calligraphy. I found myself staring at the writing when I should have been reading what was written.

    I woke up and didn’t want to wake you, you looked too happy in your sleep. When you wake up, go down to the garden I want to show you something.

                                Tom

    I quickly got dressed and made my way to the garden, but I was stopped just short of the door by King Louis.

    “Ahh, Queen Lori, please come here.” he moved his hand gestering me to come to him.

    “Yes, King Louis?” I asked him. He put his arm around my shoulders and laughed.

    “Please hun, call me Louis, you are staying in my house after all. I just wanted to talk to you about my son.  How have you guys been doing, you two seem to spend a lot of time together. I was just wondering if you were still being loyal to your husband?“

    I didn’t say anything. “You how bad it would look if you weren’t and think about Don how he would feel. He loves you, more than anything in this world. What about your reputation, do you want to be labled as a whore your whole life? And Don would change dramatically to you, he wouldn’t be the nice guy that you last saw.” I was in a panic, he knew, of corse he knew he is the king, Jen probable told him what she saw, I knew it, that little skank.

    “Louis you must be mistaken, Tom and I are nothing but friends. He is the only one that I feel like I can relate too. There is nothing between us at all.” I told him. Looking him in the eyes was worse than lying to him, I couls be killed for lying to the king. Even though I am a queen it is against the rules to lie to a king. Woman are lower on the chain then men.

    “If I have offended you Queen Lori, I am sorry. It’s just that you have been spending a lot of time with my son, more so than normal, it just looks suspicious. And with Halooween only tomorrow, Don will be coming back.” This whole first year seemed to go by fast.

    “Already? He’s coming back? This year went by so fast though.”

    “I know Queen Lori, soon you will be leaving us, to go back to your husband Don.” The King patted my head and left. I started walking to the garden.

    Tm was waiting for me, sitting in one of the many chairs at a table.

    “Where were you, you never sleep this long?”

    “I ran into your father on the way down. Look Tom we need to talk about something. Don comes back tomorrow, I think that we should take things slower than normal, like we shouldn’t hang out today, your sent is allover me and after last night, well we should just, god I don’t want to do this. We should just stop seeing each other.” I told him.

    “Wha-what? Lori did my father tell you to say this to me?” I shook my head no. “Why, why are you doing this to me Lori? Lori I love you, you can’t just tell me to stop seeing you, I can’t. I just can’t!” his shoulders were shaking and tears were forming into his eyes.  He got up off the chair that he was sitting on and came over to me. He placed his hands on my shoulders and gently shook me.

    “Why are you saying this Lori, why. Give me one good reason that you want to stop this, and don’t say that it is because of Don coming home!” his voice grew louder the more that he talked.

    “I-I don’t have a reason, I just want to end this now before it’s too late.” I looked at the ground pretending to be interested in the rocks below my feet. Tears were streaming down my cheeks but I kept my hands close to my face so he wouldn’t see. 

    After a while his hands dropped from my shoulders and he took a few steps away.

    “You don’t want to be with me anymore?” he asked.

    Oh god I did, I wanted to be with him for the rest of my life. But Don was coming back tomorrow and I needed our reactions to be real, that we didn’t like each other. So I lied, I lied to the one that I cared about.

    “No, I don’t want to be with you anymore.” My tears were gone, and I looked him in the eye. The hope and the love that I once saw in there disappeared slowly, like smoke coming out of room when you open the window. And in its place was hate, and betrayal, but love it was still there burning in the back of everything, he will always love me.

    “Fine then, it’s over between us. Go back to your Don. The one you really loved all along, I was nothing but the backup.”

    “No Tom, no, never. You meant so much to me, you still do Tom, forever, I just can’t take the risk of us with Don, I don’t want to be with you anymore, but I still want to be friends.” I tried to make the situation better but all I was doing was making it worse.

    “Friends! Friends?! You think we can still be friends!? No not after you have broken my heart. I have told you I loved you, almost everyday, and not once have you said it back to me. I should have known.” he started to walk away.

    “No Tom wait! I never meant for this to happen, I was supposed to stay here for a year and then go back to me life, I never meant to do the things we did! Just please forgive me.’’

    Tom never said a word. He just kept walking.

    It was then that I looked at the table were he was sitting at before. The table had a red cloth over it, with two black candles lit and two wine glasses filled with blood. 

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    Later that night, I was laying down in my bed, in the room that I was supposed to stay in, when I heard Tom talking with Bill.

    “If you love her, than forgive her. Because I know that she loves you, she may not know it because of how King Antonio raised her, but deep down she loves you Tom. Don has done something to her, to her mind, I can see it. She’s different than she was a year ago.”

    “I guess your right, but Bill, she’s right we can’t talk to each other anymore.”

    I heard shuffling and then a slap, probably Bill slapping Tom on the back and then a door closing. Bill’s element was air, and just when I was falling asleep Bill sent me a message in the air that traveled into my room,

    “Please don’t hurt him again. I don’t want to see my brother like that again Lori. I love you like a sister and I would do anything for you, but I won’t let you do this to my brother. He understands now, and he doesn’t hate you as much, but give him time please. Love you.”

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Hey Tomi,

There are so many things I wanna talk to you about now. But in this bedroom across form yours, all I can see are memories.