If you've ever wanted to fall away

i want to fall away

I wish I could die. I wish I could escape from the hurt, the pain that HE caused, the pain I'm still going through as I found a new one and HE DOESN'T CARE EITHER WHY CANT I JUST BE ACCEPTED IN SOME SMALL WAY  IM LITERALLY KNOWN AS AN OUTCAST AT SCHOOL I CANT EVEN SIT THROUGH MY FAVOURITE LESSON WITHOUT WANTING TO MURDER EVERY PERSON IN THE ROOM, OR MYSELF I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHICH ONE WOULD MAKE ME FEEL BETTER.

But that's ok. Maybe.
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But I cant. I am a socially inept awkward little shit with a slightly sarcastic attitude. I can't help it. Neither can you. This is life. It stays like this forever but...
That's a word I never liked to hear from anyone. I wish I could escape from the suffering that my ex boyfriend caused me by leaving me. I wish I could escape the pain of being in a new relationship with an asshole who doesn't love me.

LET ME DIE. Please just let me go. I can't cope with large crowds or high pitched girly voices echoing through the school halls I can't take the stupid remarks about my trip to the toilet and what I did and if I washed my hands.
OF COURSE I DID THOSE IDIOTS THINK THAT ITS FUNNY TO PICK ON THE OUTCAST AND MAKE HER CRY BUT AS SOON AS THAT HAPPENS THEY GET ALL SAPPY WITH THE TEACHER SAYING THEY DIDN'T MEAN TO.

I suffer from social anxiety, ineptness and slight depression but no one seems to give a shit ton about me do they? I haven't been diagnosed with any of the above but my BEST FRIEND has and I know what she goes through so.....

I'm currently laid in bed considering suicide right now as I can't take it. I have suicidal thoughts sometimes but they aren't surprising anymore as I have been having them for two FUCKING YEARS AND MY MUM SAYS IM BEING STUPID AND DUMB BUT THAT MAKES IT WORSE AS I AM A VERY EMOTIONAL SOCIALLY AWKWARDLY INEPT LITTLE DEMON NICKNAMED THE DEVIL'S DAUGHTER

i don't care anymore I want to die I don't care anymore i want to die I don't care anymore i want to die I DON'T CARE ANYMORE I WANT TO DIE I FEEL LIKE SHIT ALL THE TIME IM TOO EMOTIONAL I GET A SICKY FEELING AND A LUMP IN MY THROAT EVERY TIME I DON'T WANT TO SEE SOMEONE

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