If you've ever wanted to fall away

hi guys im sorry for the late update

A lot has happened since I was last on here, I was told I'd have to resit year 11, that I was just going to fail in life, and that I couldn't be who i needed to.
My 'older brother' angel-goku is a prick, he stopped all contact with me after Christmas and left me in a catatonic state for a while, he knew I liked him and his bitch of a girlfriend stopped our hour long talks where we would tell each other to calm down and not punch things.

Also I fell for another boy, his name is Joseph and we went out for a week before he said he needed a break because of hormones, and I cried. Then he said we were just friends and I cried again because I did like him.

I now feel as though everything has gone to hell, shits hit the fan and I'm on the road to death, but even then I still have friends I can TRUST.

Sophie: she has been there for me through thick and thin, when shit hit the fan, she was a shoulder to cry on, when I got angry, she would calm me down. Status: real

Alex: my sister, almost literally, and I talk to her about everything and I feel as if a childhood imaginary friend has helped me more than ever. Status: imaginary

Frankie: my older brother, I don't know what to say anymore as I feel that four people in my life have been more help than anyone else. Status: imaginary

Oliver: I've known this kid for ages and I can't believe after everything that happened, he is still there for me. When shit hits the fan, I'll know to go to him. Status:real

I feel like these four have done more for me than anything and if I could repay them in some way I would.