If you've ever wanted to fall away

TAGGED YAY trigger warning

I got tagged by killerpoison_killjoy and my task is to write 13 facts about myself, they probably arent interesting but oh well.....

Also 4 is pretty hard for me to say, it's v triggered and I don't feel comfortable talking about it and 2/3 of these will be triggered (sort of) so ya........

1. I still have stuffed animals in my room and I still need them to sleep
2. I still have imaginary friends and I still talk to them. ( I grew up without siblings and I barely had any friends at all, so I thought I'd make my own)
3. I have a really adorable doggo named Skye
4. I contemplate suicide every day and yesterday I got caught grilled and threatened by my parent's bc of my anxiety
5. I have a crush on a boy I know but it kills me when I know he'll never like me back and I die inside whenever I see him. He doesn't know and my biggest fear is rejection because I had to go through so much emotional heartbreak and I don't think that I could go through that again.
6. Most of my friends don't even talk to me unless their friends aren't at school or aren't talking to them
7. I hate most of my family ( my grandma, great grandma, Jake (cousin), Skye (dog), and some of the family I rarely see are fine) but I hate the rest of them
8. It never got better( I sort of still dig my thumbnail into the side of my wrist when it gets bad, but I never had and never will have the courage to actually cut myself)
9. I am never truly happy (KaiserOli will know)
10. I love kpop
11. Im scared of school (and what it holds)
12. I have contemplated running away from home (no courage )
13. I feel like death warmed up rn and im so ill